Showdowns. And Slowdowns.

VJ finally got its second title - hockey girls - but i think greater applaud goes out to the hockey guys. A div finals for guys hockey was the most exciting match i've ever seen. recently, at least. but ultimately rj were the better team - i mean on paper its quite impressive: 2 nat'ls, 5 combined sch's, rest club players. whu reli could ask for more?

But its fantastic to watch the game, n fantastic atmosphere, with all the cheering, even after they scored the 2nd goal tt by right sealed our fate. anw, great game.


Onto another Great Game. I bet most readers might already hv guessed what game i am referring to. frankly i didnt actually catch the game, but well, the scoreline (and goal-times) make it sound like probably the greatest finals since ManUtd's famous victory against Bayern Munchen abt 5 yrs ago. Well surely u have alredi guessed wat im talking abt...

Liverpool Are The New Champions of Europe!

Underdogs, unseeded. shows that anything is possible. n nvr to lose hope. even if ur 3-0 down at half-time against a famously impregnable defence of legendary players.

There always can be miracles. When u believe.

Anw the feeling was an uplifting one, n after the low of wednesday's defeat at the hands of Meridian JC, i was feeling high bcos of the champions' league final. and the hockey finals. oh wells.

N i still went for MJ choir. but it rocked. Congrats MJ choir! (and TKSS choir). AND of course, Marie! hahaha... great performance.. ;)

Special AnNouncement!

I'm dancing for ICS night. i think. so guys, appeal to u! come watch me!!!! hahahahaz~ I mean, have u EVER seen me dance before? especially an INDIAN dance? hahaha... gotta be fascinating. i'll do my best n try not to screw up hor...

(for tickets jus tag me, i'll try to let u noe.. tic prices are going for a very affordable price of ONLY eight dollars and zero cents. 8.00 only. Checks, Credit Cards, Nets payment not accepted.)

~.~

I jus saw some AndSS publicity thing. i think they shld call in some i-comp pple from vj to help them next time, cos i donno if it'll hv the pulling capacity. but listening to the background music (the andss school song) n watching the videos do bring me on a little ride down memory lane.
more accurately Memory St 53.

And i thought it was quite amusing - esp the part where they featured the andss badminton team (complete with its 6 shuttles per training, with altogether 4 teams, and 2-3 courts) and the caption was "with the right equipment, and best facilities." Irony. (Fe)y.

In any case, advertisments, no matter for what purpose, or what mode, rarely tell whole truths. they rarely tell whole lies either, cos duh, tt will get them into deep sh- erm... trouble. Children might be reading this.

TAlking abt reading - i'm finally reading my first fiction book of 2005. probably more accurately its first fictional book since mid-2004, but no one need noe that.

The Teenage Workbook, by Adrian Lim. Great read. though honestly i think the prequel, the Teenage TEXTbook, is marginally better.

i've worked up a training schedule for myself. soon, u'd see marine parade winning the inter-con, thanks to a "certain-point" doubles pair? heex.. dreamz... maybe i could even don nat'l colours, but perhaps thats reli hoping too far. but one thing i can realistically hope for is -

probably a body I, for one, can be proud of.

which, knowing me, even if i had, i wld conceal from view. hahaha....

oh and i forgot fitness. NAPFA 30pts. coming soon. muahahaah... SAFSA team, coming soon. yeah right...

ANd i hv to mug super hard. sumhow i'm determined on the much hoped for - perfect score. not exactly 100% in everything kinda perfect score. more like the 4As, 2 distincition, A1 for GP kinda perfect score. If liverpool can win the Champions' League, i can score that score.

Wait liverpool DID win the Champions' League right? *pinch me...*

but anw, Cheers to VJ. Cheers to Liverpool.

When you walk through a storm hold your head up high

And don't be afraid of the dark.

At the end of a storm is a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,

Walk on through the rain,

Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,

You'll never, ever walk alone.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,

You'll never, ever walk alone.

Finals

Its coincidence when two finals in which u have vested interests occur on the same day. 'A' division soccer finals, as well as Champions' League Finals. Is it an omen that VJ lost? :'(. so sad..

If Liverpool lose, i really probably wont even feel like getting out of bed. If Liverpool win, perhaps there is truth to the saying that every cloud has a silver lining...

Hai..

Good luck liverpool. Good luck me.

cant talk abt the soccer final. too upsetting.

Why, VJ?

HecTic Day

Title says enough.. i actually wanted to watch "revenge of the sith" today. Instead i watched "revenge of the sloth". sorta.. fell asleep in the library. knocked-out-cold. so ultimately missed out on the opportunity to watch that star wars episode III. well, i still wait in earnest. perhaps tmr is a sunshinier day.

ms wong let us off early today. very early. so i met sum1 whu nvr shares a break with us. quite a shocker, but, well, think abt this.

Assuming X has an affinity for Y. but $ no interval : X u Y " t. Then X u Y cannot exist. oh well....

procastination is a powerful inhibitor to work. duh. n im overwhelmed by the spirit of procastination. why?

1. Holidays coming soon
2. Can study during holidays. (yeah right...)
3. Can sense the coming of half days and/or full days.
4. So can teachers.
5. The onli two normal tutorials today were not really serious, i think.
6. GP is not normal, and its not a tutorial. cos the defn of tutorial is where we learn, not where we sleep.
7. Backlash was on monday, so i slept at 2am, and im still tired.
8. The prospect of work is demoralising.
9. Physics syllabus is complete.
10. Ten reasons are good enough an explanation

so due the the joyous spirit of procastination, here i am, bloggin my life away.

on that note, i think i hvnt made a clear impact in VJ. question of course, is if there is a reason to? leave a mark on VJ, not similar to the ball-mark i left at st gabs...

~innocent eyes~

What are the stuff legends are made of?

I'm always torn between two minds - one to show all my cards, accolades, stuff that could impress; n the other to hide those very things till someone chances upon them by themselves. but i doubt i need hide these stuff from my closest friends? or myself for that matter. that last statement, by the way, suggests i actually forget a lot of stuff i might hv achieved. weird... anw, i always look to the future, n i think tts the best policy. no point dwelling in the past unless u hv a way of making that stay.

I've learnt smthg abt myself. i.e. the way i study. its so erm... mathematically rhythmic. i jus subconsciously formulate patterns that have to be followed, n then use these patterns to reformulate new patterns, n thus hv an artillery of patterns that can be applied to solving problems. which would explain why i cant learn too many languages at the same time.

i do hv a tendency of mixing these patterns.
in maths its okay,
in language, i neednt say.
its great with music though,
it creates a natural flow.

i hate lit.

okay i ought to go already.

~May the Force be with You.~

Grandmaster Mace Windoo

Worked Up

Well, its been an eventful few days.. cos its been a long weekend. with loads of concerts to go for. namely aj co n band on sunday, and vj harmonica on saturday, so its been a weekend without much rest honestly.

until i napped away this afternoon, that is.

but workwise, its piling. namely statistics. stastically speaking, on the average, im behind in two different subjects, ahead in one (not anymore though) and barely making it in the other. loads of work to do. n i thought i had three days to do it. methinks that time has been slightly shortened now. by a factor of around 24. 3 hrs.

maybe im exaggerating. perhaps its a factor of 12, to 6hrs, which wld be perhaps the time to i slp. but of course, each minute i sit here blogging, that factor just rises. yup still rising.

oh anw, i don feel like doing anthg now honestly. mb i'll get the inspiration soon. i can after all, call up inspiration if i reli need it. though its sort of wasting my 'force energy'. hahaha...

im watching episode III on wednesday. or tuesday. today wanted to go, but i think a little too ex. i mean, nowadays its reli not worth gg to cinema and watching movies... wonder how rising ticket prices will hinder movie piracy. like MnO2 hinders hydrogen peroxide's decomposition.

a little chemistry goes a long way...

everybody noes that.

~.~

The 16PF report is confidential. otherwise i'd hv loads more to blog about.

But its okay for MY report rite? haha.. i think it was pretty accurate. n i always knew 90% of the things. i think the stuff i scored highest in, theyre quite negative. eg. apprehension, tension.

i.e. im a nervous wreck.

u think so?

i think so. whu noes, i might end up a dumber version of john nash.

i doubt.

but tt doesnt mean that i still wont end up schizo like him. =D. haha...

they showed "A BEAUTIFUL MIND" on sunday. too bad i didnt catch it. watching sum china opera music. no comment.

but i still admire those guys. i cld nvr play as well as that. so congrats chunmin n jz! great job. esp jz and his onstage antics.

for those who didnt buy tics from him, too bad. i shant elaborate.

FA Cup Finals.

For those who dont know, Arsenal won the FA Cup. or rather Jens Lehmann did. so much as i despise Man Utd, i can feel a note of compassion for its supporters. they deserved to win. My dad's always willed to call ManUtd undeserving, but unfortunately nvr got to. So the FA Cup final is an eye-opener.

ManUtd are Undeserving, Losers.

haha... i've always wanted to call ManUtd losers too..

Of course i wldnt say tt if ManUtd had lost to my Liverpool in the final. In tt case, it wld be tt Liverpool had managed to hold ManUtd at bay, n den performed when it mattered. haha..

Anw, talking abt Liverpool, Champions League Final soon. Liverpool v. ACMilan. exciting.

Okay now time to go study. Really late. i think the jus-now-the-mentioned factor is now 24. its already 9pm. dratz...

P.S. i hvnt been blogging all this time, i was reading abt the pilot pen cup this year. quite n interesting read.

okay ciaoz...

Seduction by the Dark Side

This is not a scenario peculiar to anakin skywalker. in my opinion it applies to many of us. let me explain.

Firstly let me point out that the Star Wars series has many more lessons and meanings and connections to the real world that it cares to reveal. the other connections, i shall not refer to here, or else perhaps there would be to omuch to blog here.

After all, i hvnt blogged in ageees. n so much stuff to write.

anw, as i was saying:
i think the "good" or "right" thing to do ALWAYS seems boring. there often is this tendency to LIKE to do the "wrong" thing. i liken this to anakin's addiction to the darkside. n jus as he continued to be glad abusing the power, n being a dark jedi, most of us continue to do the wrong thing, because its fun, n seems much more fullfilling.

But, as ani found out in the end, pls cover ur ears, whuever hasnt watched episode VI, or rather skip this paragraph...

- ani discovered finally that the good side alway IS, after all, more fullfilling. n aptly threw sum idiot down the chute.

anw, the pt is, sooner or later, we shld relise that wat seems fullfilling often is not. n vice-versa.

weird perception? haha.. okay. whatever...

anw, finally today i got to play soccer, yayness. cos season over ma.. n now its a long weekend, so can rest... n i scored quite a no. of goals, n scoring goals is a nice feeling. bah, jus now had so much to say... soon write again la.. haa ciaozz..

Friday 13th

Normally im superstitious, honestly. but this friday 13 wasnt too bad. in fact, it was quite a good friday the 13th.

random point: we started mechanics chapter 13 today.

anw, more on todays events later. cos i hvnt blogged in a week, n it seems so much longer than that, cos there seems to have been so many things happening this week.

well for one, it was tournament week, n vj crashed out at the expense of CJC. well, not unexpected lar, but disappointing. probably more disappointing for MJ though, cos even though they got the pleasure of thrashing us 5-0 afterwards, we dragged them out with us. n they've got a good team.

anw, i played singles against mj. n rumour has it the guy i played with actually slightly frightened quite a good player before me. so not much shame. i dont think i can ask for more, except for the honour of not being given under-5 in both sets (it was 15-4, 15-4) but okay lar.
note: i havent played a singles match in competition since sec 1. n then it was pretty much play play one.

on a brighter note, im free from badminton commitments already, and im ready to embrace it as a game rather than a sport. willingly.

today i realised that if i go on a scholarship, i hv no control over what i become in my future, even though i probably hv control over what company i would work for, or what course i'll take in Uni. meaning, i could study engineering for 5 years, onli to undertake a profession that doesnt have ANYTHING to do with engineering.

having second thoughts abt even trying for a scholarship.

oh i got interesting programmes on my com already, can design websites! namely gps website. if colin djpang doesnt manage to complete his, i mean.

missed a lot of lessons this past few weeks. must catch up.

okay so finally on to today!
AndSS had a holiday today because of various achievements. congrats to all andersonians. so that left my fave niece joy joy bored at home. haha... so i made the poor girl come all the way down to parkway parade (sorry!) and jalan-jalan. walk-walk. not to mention eat, duh. i skipped half of physics S, cos well,

• a) i couldnt understand anythg
• b) i was too tired and lazy to understand anythg
• c) hadnt really planned to even attend the lecture.

anw i went till 3pm. so more than half of the lecture.

i made joyjoy a bad girl. brought her to a POOL place. haha... classic. well, everyone has to hv that experience, rite? den went all the way back to bishan, where i was engulfed by the omnipresent Rafflesian atmosphere. smthg like that victorian atmosphere you might experience in Marine Parade, or Parkway for that matter.

Anw i had fun throwing cynical glances at innocent passing-by rafflesians, jus for fun of it. of course they didnt see la. i guess seeing rafflesians is a rarity, esp since i chose not to go to that sch, (altho its now 10mins away from home, drats).

Its friendly rivalry i guess, nothing more. and i saw a few scholar-friends of joy's. u might hv thought i hv had enough of scholars, being in a typical scholar class, but m'sian scholars
(except YTH) count as singaporeans. haha... anywayz joy went out with one of them, jingzhi (not ngiam) n lived happily ever after. as far as i noe la. haha...

Overall Friday 13th turned out to be quite fun. n its even more pleasant knowing that well.

I can sleep in Tomorrow!!!!

no badminton u see. haha... n no pe. haha...

Badminton. and MORE Badminton. And a little soccer & basketball too.

It was a reli amusing training today. i spent longer time playing basketball n soccer n running arnd in the basketball court than i did playing badminton. and all this during the badminton training itself. well at least its some way of spending my time, instead of sleeping on the floor or stage, or staring blankly into space, or watching pple play (already saturated with what i can already learn from them...)

But seriously, for the sake of VJ, im glad lar.. its more impt the 'key' players are trained. n even more impt that they perform, especially since we share the worst luck among the four schools that are below RJ in our group.

Meridian, Catholic, HwaChong and Victoria.

Common? in the sense tt we're all below RJ in that group. definitely by right MJ is the strongest. But they lost to CJ. its reli scary when the so-termed 3rd place team (MJ) can fight to 2-3 with RJ.

And even HCI, despite being prolly the bottom in the group, (after they lost to VJ so unluckily), prolly will qualify for the quarters if they had had the slight bit of luck NOT to be drawn in our group. i.e. by my seeding at least, schs tt shld be seeded 1,4,5,6,7 form one group. luck of the draw i guess...

or severe lack of it.

Anw, we beat HCI by the narrowest of margins, tho perhaps it shld hv been wider. we lost 2 matches we shld hv won, and won 1 we shld hv lost. odd. tt reli nvr happened back in andss. but then, i think it was a tad less competitive.

enough abt badminton lar. my tournament n involvement in badminton, at least for this year, is quite likely to end soon.
tho i hope not...

okay i thik i shld sleep already

tmr got badminton (fun) early on.. heex

ciaoz~~

Finally

I'm back here blogging again.
Why did i miss last week?

• (a) I met up with friends more often than not and got to talk alot such that didnt hv much to blog about.
• (b) Com was down.

Haha... okay anw...

Yesterday was VJC sports day, lest you guys dont know yet. and yes, again i subject myself to that self-realisation of my inferiority in some aspects. well, yeah. i cant run, i cant dance, i cant cheer, etc... so yeah its normally quite a time-wasting, life-shortening, frustration-building experience. and it kinda started out that way.

Anw, i was nicely dozing off in the top tier, row Z, as some may call it, when some peggie house caps came to chase me off the stands and onto the track. why? for some 20x100 "NOVELTY" relay. they couldnt find enough pple apparently.

OF course i was reluctant. i mean. novelty relay nvr meant u were any good. in fact last year i could hv thanked the pe dept for not "allowing" me to run cos i was a college rep. anw, this year i had no such luck. no stipulations barring me from participating. unless of course i had run in any previous individual event. duh no.

but out of loyalty to my Purple Pegasus Army, i joined the race. well, not too bad lar. for a novelty race, there were a no. of trackers n relatively known runners among the runners. so i didnt feel that mediocre. haha.

mediocrity is the villain.

Anw, i got the baton n cheong as fast as i can, so much so i think perhaps some feared my legs might break at any time. i doubt. badminton player noe? hahahaha... i wouldnt noe lar, but apparently i gained ground on opponents.. woohoo, though i still wld attribute the 2nd place finish (yup u heard rite! wooohooo!) to some runners among they guys and also the girls, prob stacy n florence from wat i heard from the stands. congrats pple!

n for my 15-16s participation in that race, i got a medal! yay! another novelty medal to add to my growing collection. but this one's sweet lar, cos its prolly the last i'd ever get.

~.~

okay, i've given up badminton. conc on perhaps what im reli good at i guess- maths. bleh, or i hv to subject myself to the knowledge that i'll be rooted in mediocrity as far as badminton is concerned for the rest of my life. not that i hate the sport. its still one of my greatest loves. but mr wong apparently "doubts" im vj-badminton-team std. *%^&. last two weeks lar. i'll cheer on. no doubt. i guess perhaps, enthusiasm is all im good for.
one final challenge set by colin, one final defeat for me. monday. my final game in 'competitive' badminton.

~.~

I relise smthg. no way i miss andss. i jus miss the pple there - the students and most of the teachers. u guys are probably the best pple i've met. then there's vj pple. this is a generalisation, it doesnt apply to EVERYBODY. But its so difficult to make friends in vj cos so many pple are so two-faced man. n im already fed up of quite a no. of pple. prolly i'll start avoiding them. its better for my heart.

prolly if u were to try to guess who im trying to avoid, u wld get it wrong. cos i don mind pple who r perpetually bstrds. unless of course they're overdose it. or dose it disrespectfully. but in any case, i think i end up preferring some pple that most wld shun.

pple who r perpetually idiots are easier to understand. pple who are always good are rare. n most of them i think by now r my good friends.. =D. n they're, unless im mistaken the majority of pple who read this blog. haha... hii u guys!!!!

so bye to u other guys. dont take it too hard. loads'a other pple still like u. i hope. haha...

Anw, away from this subject.

i doubt i hurt any1, cos i think i've a fairly good idea of who comes here. even if u dont tag me. heex...

muahahaha do i hv that air of omniscience? hahahaha... joking..

n oh my goodness gracious being. i hv horrendously gathered a horrible mess in my room. my books. yikes.. full of nonsense. must clear up. n soon. cos i hv a frightening load of work for this labour day weekend.

• Mechanics - 7,8,9
• Statistics - 8,9
• Analysis - Appn Int.
• Chem - N-compounds, Polymers
• Physics - AC

Scary? i think so. cheong ah. got more energy. cos nvr go training. muahaha... okay.. gttg liao..

U-V rays. l = ??? haha..

Neverland

Peterpan's one, not MJ's; although the general concept is the same. So we all grow up. That's inevitable. And i guess over the past few days i hv "grown up". Some sort of sudden dawn of reckoning as i was lying on my bed a few nights ago. no. last night. or maybe this morning. whichever.

If truth be told, i think i really would prefer not to grow up, because its adding a lot of burden of responsibilities etc. u don't get excused for ur mistakes that easily, its not all fun and carefree. I guess thats idealism, and no one has an ideal life, unless its one completely with the Lord. well, i'd admit, thats a very happy life. and i guess i used to have it, no worries n such. but i gave it up subconsciously. n im gg to find it back. Yupz...

I've been too self-absorbed, n overly concerned with things of this world, when idealistically, nthg in this world is really joy-giving.

I'm not preaching here la, lest u might get that idea. im jus calling it as i see it. Trying to analyse why i keep becoming so miserable nowadays, when in the past i was practically so much less so. In any case i think i'm the wrong person to ask about Christianity on that high level, due to my inadequacies at self expression. I know a few articulate people with this forte. If so happens any1 might be interested lar...

Though i doubt pple wld want to give up the materialistic world we live in.

Its so weird, but self torture is quite an enjoyable experience. Paradox of life on earth i think. haha...

okay... smthg else, which i shared in another blog, but well here goes again.

Self-Pity

is a constrictor of potential. It stops us from reaching a goal that we can set, and tt we might achieve. Because we seek refuge in self pity. Its in some senses a form of escapism to say that "we can't do it, bcos we're jus unable to". But tt's not true is it?

For example in the 3rd set of a badminton game, its easier to claim we're tired, n sumhow it seems like a valid reason to 'sorta' throw the game. Me? i'm mentally weak. (tt in itself is a demonstration of how mentally weak i am. Self-pity) But here let me try to make amends. I'll try to be stronger lar...

n yayness my spa n pw r over.

so on to a lighter 'topic'

But damn am i sooo behind my tutorials. i think. maybe. there's maths stats 6,7 and mechanics 7.2 (the latter being vomit-blood standard). n i hvnt even mentioned the upcoming prospect of the Geometric Distribution which has been said to be very very very hard. ah heck.. take it in my stride lar...

Okay, any1 wanna go out n study some day? cos its so difficult to study at home lor.. in the end i think im going to hv to do all my hw in sch before i go home every night. sowmya lend me ur house if they kick me out of sch.. hahahaha... jkjk...

den go home n happy happy sleep immediately. n im not exaggerating.

Badminton. ah jus play lar. bit tired of it in my opinion. sian. i wanna learn sum new sport le..

okay lar, my hw is beckoning. so ciao~!

~ultravioletlight~

wahhhhh

now i feel like trying out a new blog design.. so i'll try lar...

today rush to finish writing, but since my vow was to write every week, so erm... see how much i can write lar..

still hungry. ate lunch too early today. cos i was bored. now dinner time... n waiting for the rest of the familie..

okay anw...

this past week has been ermmmm okay on the whole... in a studying sense, the word is "atrocious" though, cos i think i hvnt reli studied enough. i've spent my free time more so playing/ watching TV/ watching liverpool lose. ok la good enough

okay finished. times up. bye!

SPA

ignorant folk out there, this means school-base practical assessment (i think) n its not fun at all. tmr i got spa. capacitance discharging, or so i hear... i think that much is disclosed... sadly, im quite afraid of this assessment. here's why.

Last time i tried doing an electical experiment, it went completely awefully amazingly wrong... for some reason, the voltmeter, n the current charges, seem to hv acquired lives n minds of their own, not to mention free will. exactly. they acquired free will. the free will not to flow. n the circuit was correct. weird. current charges are weird.
But at the end of the experiment suddenly they decided to come to life. anw, its better for those living thinking current charges to decide to oppose my direction during the practice session than during the real spa rite... so jus hopefully nthg bad goes wrong tmr.. X-es fingers...

Anyway i m sick today.. bleahh... so i was leaking from nose (n mouth) thru-out todays lessons. used one whole tissue packet plus a few other pieces. unfortunately, due to reasons previously defined i HAVE to go to school tmr. don want!!!! oh wellz.. sianz...

The physics lecturer lost his cool today, n just stopped teaching. jus let us copy the slides. and i didnt, cos i too, sorta lost my cool at his actions. but understandable, once i consider the scenario. in any case he lost his temper whilst i was not in the lt. i was washing my leaking face in the toilet at that time. anw alternatives always exist. just takes an opportunist to find them.

~~~~~~~

tmr april fools day. happy april fools. don get fooled too much lahz..

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I dont want to go to school tomorrow.

I want Chocolate. think Muffins. Muahaha...

n karthik stole meghna's muffin. n madhu took one more than her share.
Muffins drive pple to a life of crime.

poor meghna. with an opportunistic sister.

i want Muffins. n Brownies. n Cookies.

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ooh cuteness...
the onli way i'll get over one, is to fall for another.

~Out of the Tiger's reach, into the Crocodile's mouth~

A word to reignite the flame

in some senses applicable

Fortunately that word wont come

Thankfully

okay tt was my random thoughts of the hour...

bEnP~

Declaration
of independence?

sorta. independence from badminton. officially: i'm super-xian wid badminton already, n suddenly im beginning to feel like im joining that wave of (better) andersonians who hv given up on badminton with VJ as a staplehood of life. namely ruyan n lau, the more pragmatic pple. me? a more (ironically) "romantic" view towards badminton - as a fun sport

no doubt it is. depending on whu u play with, n how la.

i mean, i doubt that game was played with much graciousness, which is why i think i'm not too happy at the fact of being involved with the game lar.. bh man...

oh n i think i was on court moving abt for 1hr (less than that), n watching pple play badminton cum lying down on my back for abt 3hrs... cant wait for season to be over, den i can finally be rid of all this nonsense...

anw im feeling much better... chatting with jen.. n im freeeeeee! dotzies...

i'll go back to my original stance abt badminton. i'll jus play when im asked to, but i shant waste away my saturday mornins, im going to do smthg fruitful instead of stoning for 3hrs.. i'll decide on wat fruitful thing i should do later...

today is holy saturday. n tmr is easter.

the New Light is coming.

n oso this weekend is a long weekend. so it feels like sunday already. except no church. yar... okaay..

over n out! =P

P.S. shld ur wife be ur best friend? thought for the day...

A thousand and one

A thousand and one reasons to curse today. Ranging from the fact that there exists school tomorrow, to the fact that blogger home page was in CHINESEEE!!!! for crying out loud. hmm in a normal state of mind tt aint gonna irritate or annoy me, but well, there exists school tmr.
Making one misconception clear - i dont enjoy school. especially lessons. friends are a good counterweight. but then theres msn. n outings with friends without the lessons. so well, school is not irreplacable is it? my vision of a utopian society is one where there's no school.

obviously this vision is somewhat similar to the Trunchbull's vision of the perfect school - without children (Matilda, Roald Dahl) - impractical n ridiculous. so why school? to get smarter. to get a better job. to get more $money$. to apparently land more pleasures and joy.

here i dont make the clear distinction between pleasure n joy. shall refrain from preaching. in any case, u hv to work to survive in this world. n if ur like me, n would put under "fave pastime" the word 'sleeping', good luck to u. tt being sad. good luck to me.

so lets jus try to face school knowing that prospects are just going to carry on getting worse and worse. i mean - each day that passes, we get closer to our a levels. so in anyway of lookin at it, yesterday is always better than today. odd perspectives.

YET.

There are a thousand and one reasons to celebrate. Each day that draws nearer we draw nearer to the happy times of life to come. perhaps seeing our grandchildren, perhaps seeing our Maker. N we complete another day of our fragile existence. and blessed one, for it always can get worse. so i shall count my blessing for today. obviously not reaching till a thousand and one.

1. i'm practically rid of any strong feelings for any particular person. i'll drink to that.
2. i'm free of the chains of any bounding.
3. i had a wonderful trip in bangkok. well it was a mad rush, but that adds to the adrenalin rush...
4. i'm alive n so are all my loved ones.
5. i've got wonderful friends. and enemies perhaps. still thankful for them too...
6. there IS a liverpool game today against everton. we are going to win! so i put it down here. in any case if they lose, they lose tomorrow since the game ends tmr morning. so its not reli a blessing for today rite?
7. i'm going in utterly unprepared for lessons tmr. (how's tt a blessing? somehow it feels like a liberation, leading to point no.2. the full ouch will be felt tmr.)
8. i'm completely unprepared for the chem test on tuesday. nope. i am prepared. prepared to fail. i'm completely prepared to make my chem teacher happy n fail. after all i think i'd deserve it. especially in her eyes.
9. i've got no PE tmr, unlike some unlucky blokes. sneers* haha..
10. n yet i still can barely do 3 pull ups on average. right back at me eh?
11. oOo a full football team of happy thoughts! capped off with the most wonderful happy thought of all. My God Loves Me!

So here comes that above-mentioned preaching of the difference between pleasure and joy. joy lasts. pleasure is intense, but doesnt last. which is better? ask yourself. the pleasure of a fling, or the joy of friends =P...

BOTH! of course
HAHAHA kidding~

Singing/Signing off today, VeryCrazy(inthai) @ blogspot.com.

~bEnP~

Going ^-^ UP. downwards.

yayness the holidays are here true n true. n i spent my first day of hols... yeah go on, guess - PLAYING - surprise surprise... oughtn't hv been the case? no. cos today is day of resting. n tmr is day-to-go-out-wid-old-frens. yupz... looking forward.

anyway looking backwards... i think i just blogged yesterday... which is quite uncommon for me. i mean. twice in two days? ok.. nvm off the topic. im blogging now cos theres no one online. not surprisingly - look at the time. LATERR... yeah... n i think i needed to talk to somebody this afternoon.. by "somebody" here i mean "anybody", not "some particular person".

though i'd hv settled for that too... Anyway... the point being, i was lying in my bed in the afternoon, quite tired but cant get to sleep cos i'd be thinking abt some stuff... stuff i think i'd reli be better off forgetting.

Not as serious as one might think. more like..

• 3pronged attack not working as a distraction
• nonchalance not working either
• n onli at certain times...

could be disasteeeeerous. (deliberate spelling error)

i'd get it off my chest before i get married. or engaged for that matter. just see how it unravels -o__ - before it gets halted in it tracks... o or o_______ _ _ to infinity. dreamz... o_o...

wide-eyed wonder.

i thought a communication blockade wld guide me on the right track. but guess not.. mental blockade too... anw tt reminiscence is probably the reason why im bloggin tonite... maybe i'd be fortunate n 'the madness of my com' wld decide not to publish this post... i donno why im saying that.. yeah... needed some means of expression. playin piano jus not working today...

why the blockade? why the fear of telling? bcos its nvr worked out perhaps? or bcos this is probably the onli time i'd ever thought it was right... i hv no idea. n i need that confirmation. i need it, but im afraid of getting it.

i mean, signs point towards -ve answer. n i think this time wld probably be worse than the other times... wld it be possible tt it wld be mutual? hmmm.. not likely, knowing me.

i aint good enough? bleah.. i'd rather be thinking that way actually..

hmm im gingerly treading ground so as to conceal identity. last person in the last possible place on earth.. sadd... maybe a good nights rest wld make me forget. otherwise goodness knows how i'd be able to concentrate on work when i hv to do it..

i've talked abt 7-9 paras abt what most (all probably) would find incomprehensible... sorry abt that.. needed to let smthgs out..

anyway today i watched three movies! - cinderella story, star wars episode V, and Shark Tale. coolios.. it was my day of rest after all... n i caught the trailer for episode III.. looks sooo cool.. hope the good guys win that battle though...

must get back in shape. n study.

oh n we going bangkok on thurs. way cool.. shopping trip. no time to visit old friends. awww... in all seriousness.. mb next time when we hv a longer break. n if i pass my napfa. so tt means must work harder on my arm n shoulder strength.. yeah.. n smashing power. vj-dynamyt.

yeah whatever.

mug GP. do tutorials. eeek tutorials. but good thing - i don seem to hv any school over the hols. which is cool. *boasts* (while chucklin' at the poor souls who hv to go to sch). but i got laughed at back by pammy. "school finishes in a month" n now is study break...

droolz...

must write letter to pple overseas. make a note. carol, jen, keegan. soon. i'm jus not good at keeping those kind of promises. sorry pple! porous memory. n procastination gene. those of u studying medicine/ bio-engineering help me isolate that gene... thx! ok kidding.. i jus absolutely do NOT condone bio-engineering. well except maybe in some very special cases. (keegan u are last cos u called me the other day) yeahh... i'd reli ought to stop doing that yeahh? yeahh.

tmr k? tmr is friends-day. my declaration. whichever of u 3 read this tell me k? i'd wanna noe whu actually reads my blog... whu does anyway??? hmmm... Shudder to find out...

okay time for my fave section: Random Verses
today's random verses comes from a song i like a lot - Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder if you ever think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your precious memory

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
And I I
Don't wanna let you know
I I
Drown in your memory
I I
Don't wanna let this go
I I
Don't

okay that's it from me, bEnP on verycrazy(in thai).blogspot.com... see you on my next rendition of yesterday, today. (if u made sense of that past sentence, tell me too. but if u didnt, ur about the same as me. poor you)

bidding
you
adieu~

benjamin tm

Moving on...

damn i jus typed sooo long the other day n then suddenly the whole system went 'kaputt'.. oh wells.. not my luck...

ok first things first: All-England Update

• Mens singles final between Chen Hong n Lin Dan both of China. n i support Lin Dan (count the no. of times "winner" appears on his accomplishment-list) but he lost.. bleh jus my luck. my jinx. next time pple if u want to win dont ask me to support u k?
  I think i'm a jinx.
• men's doubles between china goodness-knows-wat-their-names-are and denmarks Rasmussen n Paaske. I like Rasmussen. buy my dad's supporting them. so im for china. for some reason. goodness-knows-wat-reason.
  
  oOo btw pple do you noe i hv Jonas Rasmussen's autograph!!! yeah...
• womens game all china affair, no one actually watches that anymore... might as well call that even All China instead of All England.
• oh but there's at least one english team this year - in the mixed doubles final. good home support at least.

yar for full details jus go to IBF website.

Anyway second thing's second.

What has happened this week.. hmm... ooh yeah keegan called from down under.. yeah.. haha aussie accent developing and all.. well.. yeah.. den there was this essay writing competition in NUS.. so i had to skip training... SAD lar... they gave us five topics. sounds good rite? but here's the catch - all five topics were all abt religion. sensitive issue. n me being me can have reli strong views regarding this topic. hope i was jus reasonably unbiased lar...

den after that i jus went to the open house at NUS too... was with sowmya (who was in the comptn with me) n marie n her friend... so yeah... den eat at mac(s)... blew a bomb. man. bk so much cheaper. 390 for a whole meal... look at all the monies!.. bleh...

all this time the whole family save colin was at m'sia, hving apparently the time of their life. well mb not. place buzzing with cedarians. cant be too pleasant? haha... rephrase: place buzzing with Girls. still not too pleasant. den today went down to sba to play badminton (i mean wat else DOES one to at SBA?)... there were ex-nationals. my honour to be there. i'd improve now. i hv room to improve. contrary to popular believe that i've reached my peak and too lousy by nature.

• note to self: improve footwork.

Anw after that went amk study with wZine... stress when u cant do questions i noe... yeah.. all s paper. better start muggin s paper

Things to Mug

• GP
• Maths S
• Everything else... damn...

yaddaya-yaddaya - then church - den go out awhile - den im here.

Hi.

=D

oOops!

Oh wells... I missed last weekend.. but i think it was soo hard weekend. i don't noe why.

Anyway.. i doubt anyone actually comes here, so to whomever it may concern, sorry for missing, tho i think i aint apologising to anyone.. oh wells..

OMG i failed my GP essay! and all because i mentioned a few good points of totalitarianism... bleah... so much for balance. and i was onli given 67% of the time to do it. sad case. n since all my supposed evaluation of my points were located in the latter para's that didnt come out due to the lack of time, yar, my whole essay lacked evaluation. AND i put in effort in that lar!

without effort i get 16/50
with effort i get 19/50.

i might as well not put in effort lar!!! blardy hell... *i feel reli shortchanged*

n he told me not to write politics! hmph... if i listen to him most of the time, this is where i stop! come on lar, its the onli gp topic worth doing. mass media is HIS fave topic, not mine... jus hv to read up more.

• I vow to start mugging GP.

Well, there's kaleidoscope (n kaleidoscope online exclusively to me) n then theres research to be done on my pet topics. i'll show him! idiot. (its not in my character to insult teachers in this way mind u... but well, im not in a 'normal' state-of-mind.

OH n Mechanics is driving me up the wall. or well, off the wall. Impulses n Impacts. Oblique impacts...

~!~

"mv sin f = mu cos q ".

and the restitution rubbish. got headache. n the qn asks to prove to 0.185. n all i can get is 0.815! blardy hell. stuupid f maths mechanics.

u reli shld try catchin me at a better time

perhaps during the hols!

okie how to feel better after a blog: realise that well, there are onli TWO more school days left! (one and a half preferably), weeee... living on...

no. chugging on. dragging my feet as i walk slowly down to the corridor to the march hols.

random verse that comes to my head

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

JTS

3 letters that tend to represent the defining moment of a class. once a year.

Once a year u suffer (especially if ur the treasurer...) and once a year u enjoy (unless of course ur the treasurer still suffering the after effects of last year) =P

Of course im talking about "Junior Treat Senior" at VJC. A 'customary' practice. i jus wonder which lucky n smart n geni-ostic n eeediotic batch invented this system. The name is self-explanatory. For those who still dont understand, please approach my tag board (not advised, as i might jus laugh at u) or approach the nearest Victorian (JC of course) to find out more.

Aniwae... today was the S34 JTS!!! *applause!!!* (unless of course ur wan ling, 05S34 treasurer)

N i was reminded i owe "pple-whu-now-r-short-of-cash" loads of money. correction: 04S34 class fund owes them money. yup. not me. but i reli going to start collecting money!!!! i will!!! next week. $5.

yeah. if u cant tell, i'm in a "whatever" mood now...

ok so hows my week... yup. whatever week... badminton sux as usual.. cant seem to play properly at vj... eeek... but at least i like the team already... good enough for me!

• I AM going to improve my badminton. YUP.

No reason to improve my badminton, so erm.. why m i doing this? for marine parade? not reli likely.. its a fun game to play. anw no motivation. except colin. guess he's the last remaining bit of motivation left in my badminton-life. U GO, ST GABS CAP!!!

colins frens r quite cool. nice guys. practically changed my impression of st gabs guys. so now i noe 3 nice st gabs guys. already 2 more than i expected they'd hv... sorry st gabs! u are a good sch. but well colin was saying theres a lot of riffraff left in that sch, for all its goodness. nthg can be done abt that. anw...

ooh exciting part of the week was thursday... though the rain, n the "price of pool" ruined it. shldve gone parkway. den can play cheaper. amk pool place nearly $8/hr lor..

i met marie n naf at amk.. naf's bdae.. so slack at amk library, (naf's fave place in the whole wide world save australia), till donno when lar... den wanted to cross to go amk pool place. den as we were abt to step out, suddenly got torrential rain. seriously. torrential. anw, so we went one biiiig round, bought n umbrella n reached the poolplace half wet. my right n her left. tiny miniscule dimunitive excuse for an umbrella. granted, it covered one person. half of me n half of her..

ok anw enough complaining abt tiny umbrellas n start complaining abt pool places tt are way too ex. it was like $6 for OFFPEAK lor.. n we went at peak... so in the end was like.. don play pool; my pocket will start crying.
DEN jus eat at kfc (don wan moss burger cos my pocket will cry too), chat for awhile, (quite a long time actually) den go home! good day.

ohh.. i relise its a bit hard to forget tt u like sum1... so i think we jus hv to get used to the fact, till, as i once read in a GP article, its uniqueness is lost. so i hv to go on keeping this 'secret' n jus view it in a nonchalant point of view.

IHATCOY. so what?

yeah tt kind of view. for those whu are clueless and curious, go read the Teenage Textbook by Adrian Tan. its nthg to get overly excited over anw..

den of course theres my 'hero', n for the benefit of pple out there whu speculate i.e. marcus, Nope, theres no story here. my hearts elsewhere... haha!

socks is my hero!

n so now i m literally proclaiming to the whole world. cos she's so disciplined. which, duh, im not at all. n she's as fast as me in 2.4km. =P

oh i miss crappers. jus plain crappers. guess tts y its so fun talking to jen yuh. hahaha. ultimate in crapping. i think i can crap too.. duh im crapping now. no. normally i crap in blogs.. today im jus droning. amnt i? lets try to liven it up. n i think i've been writing for arnd an hour or so by now..

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I like tt phrase i just used.

"i'll tell her the day b4 i let my mom choose my wife from india"

not exactly i think.. i'd probably nvr tell her. nor will i let my mom choose. i hope.

hahaha..

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eek polar coordinates. cant rmb de curve. but soo cool the pics u can draw wid it. hearts n such... cool.. one minus cosine half theta (1- cos (0.5q)). try it. its well some sort of heart. yeah.. translated to cartesian coordinates its a bit harder lar... lazy to express in terms of y,so leave tt up to u lar..

2+x/(x^2+y^2)=1/root(x^2+y^2)

Yup... fun anyway... but there are a whole loads of topics tt appeal more to me. more aesthetically impressive.

Statistics: Poisson Distribution. Y~Po (l) rubbishie... but very standard. repetitive. but hvnt seen F maths part yet. tts hard. okay im getting sleepy already. actually onli came online tonite to listen to 100 years. so gonna listen to it once more... yeah.. den can go sleep. adieu~!

>> (damn long today huh?)
>> (and the l actually came out!!!)

Trudging Along

Literally... Tiredd.. But just have one question:

• Where'd my freaking Saturday disappear to?

They give u weekend to rest n recuperate. (n sunday for tutorials lar) but where'd my saturday of rest gooo????? i reached saturday night realising that my day of rest - that sole day of rest in the week - had just vanished away. And i hadnt got much rest.

oh wells... so i slept right into sunday morning. literally the whole of sunday morning. woke up at the stroke of noon. after every1 had gone, and returned, from church. so i had to go for evening mass. no complains there.

but eeek so much work to do, n im getting a little stressed out. all right, a lot stressed out. so now. plan for tonight, after i log off. Analysis - Numerical Methods. MEchanics - 2.2 + 3.1. STATISTICS - 4.1 + 4.2 + 4.3... sad huh? maths maths and more maths. depressing. oh then there's the mission to create the gpsoc website. haiii...

i doubt im going for badminton tmr. jus train a bit first though.. see lar.. ok better go for the mathathon now...

adieu~

Welcome to Anfield.

I'd be using much fouler language if this weren't to be put up online, cos well, this jus hasnt really been my day...

But i must learn to accept defeat in wat i do (just as my fave team Liverpool seems to have done). So in the end, lets jus accept it and get on with our lives. Nvm, getting outclassed by Birmingham City (today) still is not as bad as getting destroyed by relegation-contenders Southampton (few weeks ago). I'm only shocked at how i've managed to keep faithful to the team. bleh...

Okaay, first things' first, cross-country. Well i got 260th position, which is not too bad considering i wasn't REALLY in tip-top condition, but well, no excuses la.. anw wala thought me a new way of viewing this position. I didnt LOSE to 259 pple, (technically i didnt. onli lost to around 256 cos pple cut me unfairly) i BEAT say 540 pple? 540>259, so technically its good!!! yayness! haha..

*distant applause*

yeah whatever.
Ooh yarr.. for those who didnt noe, Friday was 'Ash Wednesday'. Yup, no typo involved, Ash Wednesday happened to fall on Chinese New Year, so it was 'postponed' to Friday. And so begins the 40 days of Lent.

And boy was it busy. as if running around for cross country was bad, i ended up journeying cross country (this time literally) for my mom... i.e. from NE(home) - SE(School) - SE(Parkway, this is at my own will of course) - NE(home again) - S(lavender) - NE(home) - NE(AMK) - NE(home).

S(Lavender) was to get my brother's I/C done, and NE(AMK) was to buy food... (for the children at least)...

and SE(School) was for some absurd reason which i still, after 11 years, cannot fathom.

Oh wells, so naturally i was shagged (tired, for those who willfully choose to misintepret). completely. 'but there was a nice show to watch...' bleh so i end up sleeping at 1. like today i guess...

woah i only just peeked at the time. shocker.. ought to get to bed a.s.a.p. Hopefully to sweet dreams... byeeeee

Chinese NeW YeaR,

Indian Style

Ohh.. pple ask me "do u celebrate chinese new year?" (in all their innocence i shall presume). And i can't help it but heap on more confusion to these confused minds ('confused' is another word for 'innocent' here) by choosing to view the word "celebrate" in a way different to theirs - i.e. to celebrate is to rejoice. and so "yes, i do 'celebrate' ON chinese new year." Simple as that.

But well that's not reali that's true.. especially in the sense that, well, chinese new year fell on days which negated one week to jus one day. one day which pple viewed as "a day to come to sch jus because THEY said we must". hmmm.. anyway, in any sense, since friday we have our 'dear beloved cross country', (for those who can't see scarcasm when its laid flat out in front of you, i'll be nice enough to offer a translation: 'xxxxxxxx x-country') we have an ominous 'treat' (again for those i mentioned earlier:!@#$%) in store for us that we can look forward to (i'm tired of offering translations, so jus believe wat u want to believe).

new vows:

1. i'm going to become fit, up to n higher than sec 3 standard.
2. i'm going to actually do all my tutorials on the weekend in preparation for the week (chinese new year is not considered a weekend)
3. i'm going to have enough energy after cross country to run another 4.8 km, by hook or by crook... (nah, who m i kidding?.. definitely by crook)
4. i'm going to try n solve a little problem regarding... erm.. distractions.
5. i'm going to blog every weekend. yar i am, okay... stop sniggering!!
6. i'm going to keep these vows jus as my dear friend shaWiza shaWi keeps hers.

yay wish me luck in tmr's cross country. nah i wont need it. cos i wont use it. byeeez~!

BrEak-AwAy

i jus realised i hv actually stuck to a new favourite song for a pretty long time... perhaps its pretty much applicable to me in the sense that its kinda my ambition...

Anyway i fell in love with this song even before i knew Avril co-wrote it.. and well, probably its here for those of my frens who r studying or will study overseas..

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray (I would pray)

I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floorsS

winging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway...

MaKeS U WonDer

Finally.. a week of serious confusion is over.. and a new one has begun. i always look at sunday as the beginning of the week. cos im most refreshed then.. in all senses. physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally.

But if u ask me, all four aspects above mentioned are pretty linked. so yeah.. after church i went to pray awhile.. somewhat meditating abit.. on my life n wat was preached today. n i realise jus wats wrong with the world today.

Everybody is doing what THEY want, worrying what THEY want, and wish for. Even Sunday-going christians.. we keep asking for things.. but its jus what WE want... bleah.. Dawn of reckoning... If we were not to do n concentrate onli on what WE want, im sure the world wld definitely be a better place..

But its tough lar.. can start trying..

Ok so ends the first weekend of term. n the badminton girls team look set to get the nat'l championship, while our boys are getting set to erm... well get top 16 la.. out of 16, nonetheless.. but anw.. we can watch our girls win.. sweet enough.

Arf.. so much holiday hw left. statistics.. groan... i'd better start right now.. otherwise.. die lar... n worse, if i not finished by tmr, theres little chance one more day wld make a diff.. monday night! badminton! argh.. problem. but i'll jus take a step back n relax lar.. jus do what is needed of me. =p. yepz.. hmm tt means now. okok.. off to do hw! adieu.. till next week!

B.Ed

No, not bachelor of education. jus bed. i realised i ottago bed earlier. :D okay..

its a wonder solution! i get to skip the "depressing" part of my day - the night. AND i m less stressed in the morn. hopefully lar. BED!!! i love my bed!

rmb kiddies, its always better to sleep in your BED at home than on your desk!

oh wells.. anyways soon im gg out wid my grampa.. tts cool, onli prob is - going to buy Assessment books! argh.. n hv his Work (i.e research on The Economics of Sports) to do.. haha.. sounds cheem eh? its not. but fascinating none-the-less...

hmmm i think there's no epl this week. bleah. oh wells, reduces the dilemma on singapore indon tie.. ought to watch it la, but i think i'll end up cursing at the tv a lot. cursing at players who cant hear me? bah.. sounds mad.. curse at ref perhaps too.. see la...

tired liao.. mb i blog again later..

Grabbin' Shadows

Nope, these arent the shadows of pple i want to be. its the shadows of pple i knew once. its like.. everyone changes, granted, thats a fact of life. A lack of change would dull life to such an extent, lets jus say its unimaginable. but still, what if everyone adapts n then u are jus left behind. what if.. in the rapids of change, we cling on to the rocks rather than ride the waves..

Its quite sad, more so for myself, as i watch other pple capable of so quickly adapting themselves. meaning simply, if evolution were to pass us by at a little faster rate, i'd be extinct in no time..

N again the troubles tt plagued me, n made my life quite fun, in andss, theyre coming back. mainly heart against mind kinda problem. n well, u noe, i always tend to favour the mind. ought to go with heart some day. hmmm... anw, it doesnt make sense for any1 to like me more than jus as a fren. nvr made much sense. jus not fated i guess.. oh wells.. lets jus wait for this thing to jus wear off. done it before, yar it didnt work, but now theres more at stake la, i guess, eg. a friendship.. heex.. oh well...

too much said already. but moving on.

argh got badminton tmr, n got loads of work to do. n i cant work at home... sheesh. nvr works. im going to sum library sum day n study...

ok la. tired, n depressed, s i hv been for the past few nights. bah...

goodnight world~

today is a sad day for all humanity.

or at least, for all school pupils in our tiny isle..

its the last day of holidays, n school is starting very soon. man.. this is depresssing... ya, the year 2004 is over, n welcome 2005. hopefully its a better yr than last year, but i think we end up saying that at the end of every year.

and hence my hypothesis: every year is both good n bad, but its jus by human nature we tend to see the bad and r blind to the good, n hence even if we get a year tt is 99% good n 1% bad we might still hv the chick to ask for a better year. i mean honestly, lets jus spare a thought for those of the 6 billion of us who are hving a 99% bad and 1% good year. well, for them, perhaps we could look at it from the bright side... it is reli reli reli very possible n in fact likely that the new year would be much better than the old one. quite a high chance...

so for my new year, i jus hope it will be a normal year, not too bad, n not too good either, for if its too good, its likely not to get any better. bah.. weird perspective. totally...

let me analyse the prospects for the upcoming year.

1. a new importance for PE n pull ups. damn...
2. easily identified problem - A levels
3. badminton, but tt seems to apparently be taking a back seat, not due to any exertions on my part..
4. GLOPOS. honestly this wasnt smthg i had reli thought would be a core CCA for me, more as a subsidiary one. but sumhow ive got a recently rekindled interest in it. fascinating to design a web-zine. designing either a website or a magazine is fun. so imagine wat fun this is...
5. hmm i reli would like a scholarship n wouldnt like to be disappointed. so unfortunately i hv to work reli hard on it. n i don like that. not the hard worker sort.

so it seems i hv my work for 2005 cut out. or i could menanti nasi disajikan di mulut... sumwhat like how i hv been kinda carrying out my life in some respects. but i'll work to what i need to work. do your best n God will do the rest..

so look out world, here comes my best... n it aint gonna be pretty.

ok in the light of the new year,

HaPpY nEw YeAr all..

n in the light of customary practice for a new year,

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
And days of auld lang syne, my dear,
And days of auld lang syne.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
We twa hae run aboot the braes
And pu'd the gowans fine.
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne,
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld ang syne.
We twa hae sported i' the burn,
From morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne.
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
And ther's a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie's a hand o' thine;
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

Wish me LUCK!!!

Arf i missed OUT on one day!
not jus anyday. MY BIRTHDAY!... waaaa...

ah.. nvm.
better like this..

so on 12 dec im awake till midnite. and i get my first wishes! yay! colin of course first to wish me, on the upstairs bed, wad dya expect. den grace (ur second!) sms. and den i got calls on mi hp. from marie, n interuptin her, gobi.. haha..

well den i sleep.

so my bdae is as-per-(annum)-normal.
not mundane in any sense. jus tt normal saves a lot of explanations.

anw we had lunch in j8. pammy carol auntina and colin, deebs, n mum.. and followed soon afterward, (soon bcos of shopping and digesting) by swensens ice crem! yay!!

i was reli tired la.. for some reason.. anw.. so we go back and watch HP3, deebs's bdae prezzie. yay!

den was de cake cutting ceremony. the quiet family one. which is good. haha

anw.. now i got a chalet to go for... not overnite most prob.. haha.. okie.. ciao!

Weeee!!!

Finally im back home.. i was at de chalet for past few days. wed, thurs, fri, and of course saturday mornin'... and was so cool..

I mean like jus hang out with the "unit". familie..! cuz's.

So how was it? on wednesday was jus a normal chalet day. i.e. play with cousins jon, jackie, stevie. altho i say its a normal chalet day, it doesnt take away any lafter or fun-ness of it la.. jus normal as in 'wat should be expected of a typical chalet day lah'.

well, tt was said to point out that in saying that, thursday would be considered an atypical chalet day. cos my frenz came over. namely naf, keegan, chunmin, marie, n jz... so ya.. but was fun la.. of course it will be. wat we did? monopoly! n cycling while the sun still shone too. and ironically though throughout the three days it kept threatening to rain, it nvr did. n the first drops were finally felt on the last night, while we were all safely snuggled in our cosy beds.

oh anw im jumping the gun.

oh ya on that "frens-day" gobi n norman were supposed to come, but norman didnt hv enuf time to make it there la, or he was slightly under the weather, or both la.. n gobi, well, dunno la.. mb he got lost.. in a time portal or smthg.. haha.. but no problem.. there wouldnt hv been much to do anw..

time portal i say cos he called me at 12 NOON on 10 dec! wishing me happy bdae.. bit weird.. time portal? bleh.. haha.. "P.S. gobi can u explain this to me if u read this? thx.. hahaha.."

anw on friday i had badminton training in the afternoon. but not much trouble in a five minute walk to school.. och.. nvr felt that before man.. jus get up, 5-10 min walk along the beach to sch.. so convenient.. man i'll miss that..

so i had to leave early, cos there was party after that, n had to get a quick ride back hopefully, n santosh was there, so i borrowed a bike la.. SC good la, rent out bikes.. och wait.. nvm, no talk abt that taboos subject here.

n i used that bike to go cycling wif da guys.. jon n jackie n steven i mean. n went further than before.. towards 0-pt, as i soon learnt afterwards, the point that says zero kilometers. Zero-point!. ingenius.. haha..

anw the party was after that, n after it ended there was excess food, shared among the pple, n so we hv food for todays lunch, but again im jumping ahead here.

so we wanted to cheong the nite. without a shutting of the eyes, but some of my 'cheonging-partners' lost the will after some time, n well, eventually conked out. so ya.. too bad.. no cheonging partners, n so i oso say goodnite la. plus the rain provided such a wonderful sophophoric feel.. how not to sleep?

bah.. anw.. nthg much missed by sleeping. in the morning had to rush to sch to return the bike, and soon after that, check out. btw this is today morning. n then wat we do when we go home? all the necessities tt were unable to be done in the chalet. leave tt to ur imagination.. bleh

and a mass clean up of the house. tt was too pretty necessary. ya.

and so its a normal saturday, n as a family, or rather few members in the family we end up watching home videos, some of us more likely. others tended to play cards or smthg, perhaps as a hangover from chalet fever.. bleh.. hahahaha...

n then so on and so forth, n here i am. after a chalet break.

next chalet: badminton chalet - 14-16 dec, probably go one day. mb stay one night. not sure at all.. haha.. over and out~!

PS my bdae is 13-dec!

yay!!!

Singapore draw with hosts Vietnam in 2004 tiger cup. great news for all those who still faithfully support singapore national futball team, a gradually dwindling number...

and i realise i was waving the indonesian flag while shouting on for singapore. kinda similar rite? the two flags i mean..

but considering we played like shit, good la

oh.. i better go sleep early today.. got chalet tmr!! yay!!!

adieu!

WaLkAbOuT

today is 6 dec though my watch tells me its the 5th. im still figuring out how to operate my watch.. bah.. shouldnt hv thrown the manual away lorz..
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i wake up early in the morning, the sun has already risen to shine the whole sky. well, whats new, i hv been waking up past 10 for the past few days.
yay! appam! eat....

how must go out at 1.00. meet jen n wz.. we going to watch a movieeee
without a paddle.

but bishan don hv the show...

so we hv to go down south. not that i mind or anything. so ps it is.. plaza singapura, dhoby ghout, the show's at 2.50 btw.. and so we hv to eat at Mac. cos WZ like mac. n everywhere else is crowded to packing point. n i get my NZ souvenir too! keychain! wif a little kiwi on it..

DUH its from NZ =P.. u wont find a 'roo on it.

so the show is like at 2.50 pm. but i think it started at 3.15 in the end. but in the premovie advertisments theres a mention abt fall, n miss WZ asks me wat's "fall", n da guy next to me, goodness knows whu it is, answers. bleh... "autumn". jen ought to hv answered first rite? she noes it personally. bah.. haha.. funny moment.

so the movie goes on.. n on.. its quite nice. interesting and funny at the same time.

and on we go..

now finally the kopitiam is empty. great, cos im hungry. fried kway teow is cheap, makan time! (wah as i write this i getting hungry!)

and walk on...
and on...

now time to go home. so we take mrt. back home. yay!

end of outing!

and so i come home doing the usual boring thing of going online. i don wan monopoly.

oh btw chalet coming soon. wednesday. two days time!!! yay!!!

all is organised. hopefully... yesh.. oh tmr i hv to wake up early.. got to do GP in the morning with popss.. haha... so better sleep early!! adieu!

Sumhow i think i m screwing up my social life more and more and more jus as time passes. why? dont ask me.. hmm maybe i jus cant let go of wat i had had last year. and perhaps i jus dont adapt to change sufficiently quickly.. bah...

i think pple now hv begun to hate me, or at least dislike me. and i m feeling it openly now. worse still my practicality comes in. sumhow it doesnt perhaps bother me as much as it ought to.. which is sad..

am i overpractical? its not as though i dont like it.. which is a bit part of the problem. practicality gets me through things. why should i turn against this attribute? haiz.. i dont want to lose what i had. but whether i can hold on, or even if i should, now begins to be a doubt.

theres a great turning point in my course of life. a can sense it. the change is imminent. inevitable too. they say embrace change. but what if its change for the worse. i believe in myself enough to trust its not a change for the better. hmm.. i oughtnt.

realise it now. believe in myself? not a good idea.

so embrace it? i guess... avoid the past? or accept it?

argh.. so confused. n i think well im better off forgetting it. ya.. neither avoid nor accept. bleh..

now watching lotr... nthg to do now ba.. pple whu usually r online n i talk to r not here. some in philippines. no names mentioned. hahaha.. bleh whatever..

i think i'd better get a decent rest. then i'll forget these problems. things forgotten do not hurt. haha.. ya.. guess tts my policy..

ok rest time.. over and out.

hihoz..

i hv needed one whole day to recharge my batteries after the chalet. spent much of yesterday asleep.

how is it that so many pple jus suddenly can get so depressed all of a sudden.. i donno.. i mean.. pple who normaly seem so cheerful and happy.

anyway.. some wonder why liverpool played with a lack of dire ambition last night. i'll tell them now. its not bcos we lack consistency. its bcos we were playing with foresight that there is an ABSOLUTELY vital champions league encounter at anfield coming up very soon. okie? okay.

blah.. now that that's over and said with.. what else was there to say.

oh ya..

i think monday im going out to bishan wid wz and jen.. well fun to see jen after goodness knows how many mths.. but too bad she not bringing her cute little sister.. pllleeeez if u read this, bring her?
haha..

bah boring la.. come back at night. buaiz..

okieeee.. im back from 4/1 chalet now.. ya.. so how was it so far?

listen on...

ok day ONE:
arrived at chalet early cos we had to get stuff for the bbq la.. i brought loads of stuff in my badminton bag. Note to self: do NOT bring a badminton bag to a chalet again. bring a backpack. its much more convenient. So that was that. didnt bring risk in the end... too much of a risk if no one played and anw there was no space in my bag nor strength in my hands to haul that massive excuse for a board game to one of the most godforsaken (not to mention man-forsaken too) places on this meagre island.

Wat are the most likely things one would find in a 4/1 chalet? mahjong playing pples (of both races and all genders - 3 genders and two races btw)? Bridge freaks? what not.

idol freaks were what it was filled with the first night. a band of two musketeers (graceful chunmin) cheered everytime sylvester got on stage. a single voice (shrieking one at that too) screamed when taufik took to stage, and soon was joined by two latecomers, all acknowledging the fact that sly probably would do better as taiwanese idol.

by now u probably noe whu i was subtly rooting for. subtly so as not to incur the full wrath of the lovely miss wang =). no offence k? haha.. but honestly, i think well, sly didnt sing a song he was suited for. perhaps not until he sang that chinese song la.. whatever it was. so i voted thrice for taufik.

and thus, jus as our first president was malay. our first idol is too. no comment.

not much competition on the finals day though, so well... ya. duh..

so ended the idol fever blazing thru our nation. and our chalet for that fact. though we could hear taufik and sly chants from neigbouring chalets. and of course, disgruntled sly fans refusing to talk to me anymore =). play bridge for summore till 4 am tt day. hmm...

its getting reli late now. day two once dawn breaks. adieu~!

bleh.. so morning has broken and i return to continue my tale.

day TWO:
Lets assume that a day begins at 4.oo am. otherwise it would be weird as a day supposedly begins at 12.00 midnite, but theres no significant detail to border between day one and day two at 12.00 midnite. hmmm understood that? if not, nvm. neither do i.

SO at 4 am we went for a short walk. perhaps to changi village, or perhaps to changi airport. both are near, so we believe. we walk on.

we reach a main road. xilin ave. left towards changi airport. right, changi village. which one? we consider, and reach a decision. by general consensus we travel towards changi airport. all our purposes seem fullfilled by going there. Nice chics for gobi, makan place for some of us, peeing place for others, and watering hole for even others. perfect place. we move on...

shariza continues to take pictures. weird ones.

oh no. the road is blocked. gobi says we could get caught by police, leading to parents being informed, which of course means 'DIE!'. or of course we could get flattened by one of the many speeding monster trucks plying their trade along that lonely road which also means 'DIE!!'. onli literally this time.

so we turn back. but not towards chalet. its too early, and we're still hungry. wait! there's still changi village. perfect to go for breakfast at a kopitiam at changi village right? brilliant. jus walk on. time check. 5.oo am. we hv been walking for one hour? preposterous, i say. but true. nvr mind. keep walking. we sing while we walk. well. croak maybe. well ruixia is the onli one whu can sing. so ya.. nvm.. we jus walk.

oh no. (again) hey little doggie... BARK! WOOF! GROWL!, it replies. we hv met a dog-end to our adventure. good doggie.
we back off.. slowly. the doggie still on the otherside of the road. but its free. we back off some more. remain calm, i say. i tell shariza not to scream. cos she tends to do that.

okie.. we trudge back towards the chalet. a premature conclusion to our morning escapade. time check: 6am. serious? well i guess not that premature then. 2 hour walk. with purpose, without produce.

we sleep as soon as we get back to the chalet.

i awake uncomfortably. time check: 8.15. i hv slept for about 1 hr 30 min. everyone else is still in slumberland. i brush teeth. i exit the bathroom, and then see pple awakening. today person whu slept the shortest is myself. 1.5 hours. longest: irvin. way over 8 hours, on his own personal bed. respect..

we go out for lunch. at bedok. shawiza's home town.

lunch food: nasi ayam. i.e. chicken rice. bah.. i think wat man...

so we go back to tanah merah to take shuttle bus.
hey.. wait.. the bus is leaving without us. he didnt even bother to look at us. stoopid fella man.. bah.. okie.. we hv to resort to taxi. 6 pple. on the way home!

we play pool/ bowling. damn fun.

3.15 shariza leaves, not alone though. sherlene leaves too..

now we watch incredibles. goodness noes wat gobi n irvin are up to. but i think this chalet lacks those outdoor kinda guys. like jasper and kunrong. yaddayaddayadda. so they're bored stiff.
i m more indoor kind. so i watch incredibles.

then after it ends we go out. all of us. but in the end we split up. gobi and irvin want to go to changi airport and do fun things. the rest more indoor kind, as i said before. but i join gobi and irvin. partly bcos its sad to go two pple.. partly bcos i want to see the haunted passageway, but mainly cos i want to go out hv a little plain stupid fun. haha..

we go changi airport, hv burger king dinner at the viewing mall. and then we go randomly waving at pple leaving singapore. its fun seeing those pple's faces u noe.. but the problem. no chics have turned up yet. so well, u can guess gobi's appetite has not been fed, though his stomach is full. but im tired. i hv to go home. so we take taxi back. but its still early.

i stay awake a bit. but my mind is reali tired now. i go to the girls room, where there was a contest of possesion for the bed. i jus settle for the blanket. and lie on the floor.

day THREE.

As i awake, i see onli three figures in the bed. the three girls - graysie chunmin n yanchun. bleh.. i go downstairs. n see the rest of the guys. all sound asleep.

again. nthg to do. so i jus brush teeth n pack my bags.

come ten thirty the guy comes to lock up the chalet. and we leave the chalet.

eleven thirty, and we're on the bus bound for tanah merah. and then a simple mrt train ride sends us all home.

so concludes our wonderful adventure. now for the next chalet upcoming. haha..

adieu~!

yay! today im here early.. cos mus sleep early la.. haa.. tmr got class chalet. eh u all in 4/1 better go hor... otherwise later we poor souls shall be aloneeee. bleh..

haha... anw.. financial problems.. looks like i hv to collect at least 20 bucks per peep. yep. its a lot. but we need lots to hv this chalet.. hope pple coorperate.

anw financial problems aside, i dont think my dear carrom board can afford to make this trip to changi =(. too heavy my new carrom board. jus to carry it out to play oso beeg problem. haha.. mb i'll jus bring board games. hahaha.. yeah.. better than nthg. and of course karaoke discs, not that i think any1 shares my taste in "yesterday" music.. haha

hey sha.. how come i deserved tt HUGE acclamation!!! :D.. not tt its not appreciated la.. haha.. jus surprised moi! u hv friendster rite? i'll write a friendster testi for you instead! hehe..

oh i hv badminton training on friday. in the middle of the chalet? mebbe.. haha.. or after it i think.. lemme see.. yeh.. mb i'll hv to miss out one night la. see first la.. but i don think im gonna skip vj training again. its fun after all righttt? heh..

ah, i'll bring RISK to the chalet. yesh.. yay can see all me old classmates whom so long nvr seen. and even those i jus saw today. i.e. kinky n jZ. btw i think jZ sounds soo cooll.. bleh.. n joy too, but she's not an exclassmate.. JOY! is a BOY! without his TOY! JOY! (copyrighted ngiam jingzhi) shall not take credit for his inspiration. lamez humour. n played carrom. n monopoly. n i think i woke off the wrong side of bed (actually joy thinks that) cos no luck today la.. haha.. but well, wat to do? the inevitable can nvr be avoided. haha.. so fun.. anw.. coolio.

adieu now tho. be back in 3 days?. abt there la.. haha..

Harlowz~!

today is 29 nov. disregard the date posted thingie on the bottom. or heck. i can change it rite? hehe... i cant keep blogging past midnight rite? well, not supposed.. cos i by rite hv to be off by 12. so ya.. better stop. its always mistake tt im here at this time. ah.. whatever.. hmmm .. back to what i nvr started.

so wat was my last entry? errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... oh so long ago ah? nvm... so sunday was church rite.. doh, no big surprise there. but surprise was (actually not a surprise for me cos i knew it) was that the Archbishop was there celebrating mass. bcos of the feast day of st francis xavier.. hee. oh soo cool.. but flipside was an additional half hour to the mass. but i aint complaining. not now at least.. haha..

den monday was wasted away. tts today i think. ya.. it is.

den again. no day is wasted. i jus learnt to play 'breakaway' so not wasted day. yay!!!

Soo... how else was this day spent? nthg much la.. cant rmb anw.. tts y i hv to blog fast.. cos my memory a bit, no very, porous. oh ya i think mb kb coming my house tmr. maybe. see first la..

bah.. now i tired ready.. shariza's com is screwing up.. ciao

Harlowz~!

Today i went for badminton at anderson. well, supposed to go for vj badminton after that, but well, i got a bit carried away at anderson n forgot to go la.. . anw i doubt i'd be going back much to anderson more, sumhow, well im getting back the feeling that im wasting courts. well i always get that feeling, so ya.. i donno. and frankly i don care either. i noe i not good, too inconsistent, wat not.. i jus enjoy playing the game, and as far as im concerned tts da most impt part la.. of course and getting my cca points, which well, would otherwise make my stay at vj less fruitful. anw i think im gonna concentrate more on Glopos come next year. ya.. its more errm... how to say?.. provides some sort of much needed variety in my diet for activities.

ya play at anderson from 1-6 at least, reach home it was easily 7, and church at 8pm. in case that aroused curiousity surrounding church service on a weekday, its a triduum in celebration of patron saint of my church St Francis Xavier, whose feast day is well, tomorrow. or the day after. not tt sure... anw tt was 8-9, and den we went for family drive to changi beach. turned out not too good an idea.. cos well, there was an accident jus onli took place, and well, it was a fatal accident. so.. well, not too pleasant a sight. anw we came back and voila! here i am.

oh ya psle results are out, but the qn for deb is where she wanna go. cedar and tk both apparently open doors? not sure.. can fight into both schools tho.. so yeah.. most prob tk now.. tho i think perhaps cedar got better chance, owing to the fact that she's already made it thru the trials there. hope its a matter of plan A and plan B and plan C, and not that plan A will disrupt B and C or wat not la.. i donno. hope it turns out for the best in the end.. ya..

wah.. lots of work to do la... crap.. how? papa's GP has been left undone for sooo long.. noooo.. and mums maths worksheets. any1 wants? haha. later do la

after i get kicked out of the com.. which should be shortly..

i'll agree with this work to be done, it would stop the rotting process my brain is right not undertaking.. seriously. its a problem that would hv to be dealt with. AND i think that im gonna deal with it in other ways apart from being forced to think (actually quite rela la..). ya im gonna start d/l guitar tabs and exercising my left brain by playin the organ or piano. much better spending of time than whiling time away in front of this com screen. its relaxing too, but of course, less sociable. gonna find new lyrics now! yupz!

ciao blog surfers!

over and out.

Guten Tag!

See its hols now so i write more often.. ya.. i would try writing a bit in anuzzer language, (veilleicht Deutsch?) whatever, but malay jus doesnt suit me; and i seem to be losing what little command of mi German! oh well, wat 'as 'append since tuesday... oh yeah loads...

UPDATING DATA (i.e. FAN) BASE...

haha..

wednesday:
Go Naf's house supposedly to watch movie. but it was in DVD format, so nvr manage to get to watch it.. so keegan, i, chun min, naf end up playing bridge/ taiti/ fishing... boring i guess, but well it was quite fun.. i mean, jus to go out wif frens is good enuf lorz.. haha.. u don hv to FIND smthg to do. Smthg to do will FIND you.. haha... yeah ok lame.
oh ya marie was sick.. =(. well, nvrtheless, u didnt miss much! hahaha...

oh ya.. then today oso was fun. go woodlands library and study wid y-zine!!! chem. well, at least tt was wat we were supposed to do.. but i guess my brain has really rotted man.. could do hardly any problem.. sux la.. nvm... taim to study...! and perhaps go to mr teo for HELP!!!.. oh well...

haiz.. was quite fun anw.. oh btw i sighed cos i started thinking of tmr.. stressful day man... got to go for badminton at anderson first, at 1pm. den vj badminton at 3pm. its not the crux of the problem. vj badminton is at tampines... so farrrr!!! haiz.. how le? i donno.. oops i hv passed into tomorrow.. so well, ya.. i lazy to go change all the tmr's to today's. difficult to find la.. hahaz~.

very frustrating anw.. cos like the vj training came up liek such as bad unwelcome surprise.. at 22:12:52 promptly. and the thing is, we don even noe if there is a fixed day, let along time for badminton. then i planned the whole day, i.e. reunite all da guys, terence keegan and i.. haiz.. mb i'll jus do a quick check on who's going tmr (today) for training. den perhaps tt will help me decide. cos i don wanna be da onli guy there.. a bit sian one.. one guy den 30+ girls.. ya.. bit lonely it gets. but well, its not even mentioned tt i'll be an onli guy, more likely i'll leave sum unfortunate soul to be the onli guy. see la.. anw i not in any beeg plans for next yrs team.. tts being generous. im gonna be what? head cheerleader? hopefully.. i don reli care. i jus care tt i play my best, n i guess its reli better for me if i don play. cos well, if i play for sch, as Kinky said, im not playing for FUN anymore. and well, badminton is supposed to be for fun rite? well perhaps... anw if im called upon under the name of a school that honestly so far i do not consider as 'home', which i did consider anderson to be. but well, i'll play for my team if opportunity arises! i'd love to. well, but i aint too hopeful, cos well, there are like 11 places in front of me? n thats being generous. oh well as i said, jus aim for the best.

Should i try for singles? haha

Fat hope i guess.. haha.. maybe.. see how tmr's (today's) events turn out.

okie.. bloggie over and out~

*Transmission ended =P*

helloooooshariza here! benjy dont delete!!!!!!!!!!

....... whatever.. she's supposed to be doing pw, but i'll grant her the wish n i wont delete it..

what a nice guy i am =P. Anw, de reason she has this opportunity to kacau me is bcos i had to go sch for ogl interview. quite fun la.. but i really hope can get thru... really quite keen on it.. will be fun right? hopefully... No. definitely.

okie lemme post u if i got in anot.. hv to wait till 13 Nov to find out..