Sumhow i think i m screwing up my social life more and more and more jus as time passes. why? dont ask me.. hmm maybe i jus cant let go of wat i had had last year. and perhaps i jus dont adapt to change sufficiently quickly.. bah...

i think pple now hv begun to hate me, or at least dislike me. and i m feeling it openly now. worse still my practicality comes in. sumhow it doesnt perhaps bother me as much as it ought to.. which is sad..

am i overpractical? its not as though i dont like it.. which is a bit part of the problem. practicality gets me through things. why should i turn against this attribute? haiz.. i dont want to lose what i had. but whether i can hold on, or even if i should, now begins to be a doubt.

theres a great turning point in my course of life. a can sense it. the change is imminent. inevitable too. they say embrace change. but what if its change for the worse. i believe in myself enough to trust its not a change for the better. hmm.. i oughtnt.

realise it now. believe in myself? not a good idea.

so embrace it? i guess... avoid the past? or accept it?

argh.. so confused. n i think well im better off forgetting it. ya.. neither avoid nor accept. bleh..

now watching lotr... nthg to do now ba.. pple whu usually r online n i talk to r not here. some in philippines. no names mentioned. hahaha.. bleh whatever..

i think i'd better get a decent rest. then i'll forget these problems. things forgotten do not hurt. haha.. ya.. guess tts my policy..

ok rest time.. over and out.