i'm lost.
i'm drowning and i have no idea which way is up.
and i actually wish its all because of schoolwork.
but its not.
i wish its because of external circumstances.
but its not.
i wish its because of someone else.
but its not.
its harder to swim when you are the chains that pull you down.
fortunately, in this metaphor i have gills; so i have time and am not really drowning. but i AM searching for the light. i know which direction it is in; but i dont know if i'm going anywhere near that direction.
i only know that since i'm the one sinking i'd rather not drag anyone down to the murky depths. that would be the least i can give to the world.