Stars

My head has been over my heels for too long. And, unsurprisingly, I have not been completely aware of it till now. Love is such a complicated emotion. I suppose even the quantum nature of everything is marginally simpler to comprehend.

The complexity of it is demonstrated in two very different cases - both involving people who coincidentally share the same name. But where one is Charn, the other is Narnia. One dying, one birthing.

Sometimes when you see one relationship collapsing on itself - failing on epic proportions even, it almost feels like seeing a star collapsing on itself. Not a pretty sight.

Correction: I reckon it IS a rather pretty sight to see a supernova. What I mean, obviously, would be that its not that good an idea to be anywhere near that collapsing star. Nor, of course, is it wise to BE that star.

So back to the star. It collapsed on itself. Much like how relationships collapse even though each person is essentially the same person as when the relationship started. Acknowledged that people do change; but seriously, how much? It leaves me to wonder if its true that sometimes the very things that attracted two people together ultimately push them apart. Really don't know.

Which is why its so dangerous to go in blindly to birth the star.

Maybe thats why human beings were not meant to be in control of their own lives. So many decisions; so many criteria; so many possible stumbling blocks to their "self-proclaimed destiny".

So i think for me, its back to the river. Taking the current and just looking for signs pointing me into the right distributary. Or perhaps randomly choosing either fork in the path. Maybe the stars will guide me (or force me down a path). But then, they've brought me nothing good so far.

Anyway the river will always end up in the sea. No matter what.