Happy Fathers' Day

How fast this day has passed - after coming back from church (special mass for deb's church camp) and i looked at my wonderful watch and it was already 5.30pm.. where the heck did my day go? then i rmbed...

I was attempting to stay up late last night. then i changed my mind - i began attempting to stay up. but at 4am this morning i realised the magnitude of the task i set myself, and fell asleep without much trouble. and so naturally i woke up at 1145 and had breakfast at 1200, went to chruch at 1330, had lunch at 1500, watched abit of tv before looking at my watch at 1730. oh well..

i hv to go back to camp tonight, probably my last night there - oso the last night i'd be seeing my platoon; and i believe that they warrant a fine entry here @UVLight.com. some day lah.. haha..

i can feel smthg different abt me this afternoon - church camp mass.. suddenly alot of memories came flooding back to me.. my own church camp, when i found my way back to God and the Church. and i remembered smthg that i told myself ages ago (5 yrs ago).. The reading was about the Transfiguration, about the apostles who saw the Transfiguration (the full revealing of the divinity of Christ) and how those same apostles hid in their upper room for fear of men after the Crucifixion from lack of faith. they saw it with their own eyes, they felt it with their own hearts, yet they didnt believe anw..

i couldnt believe i'd ever doubt the existence and love of God. and here i was five years later, doing just that - not doubting His existence.. but moreso his Love. and i'm very glad that i went for this church camp mass that brought me back in time to my pre-confirmation days. even had this fleeting thought that the pure white cassock looked good on Fr Gerrard. and wondering if i'd ever look as good in it..

then i held myself back and told myself i'm jumping too fast.

Anw the best i can do for now is be a good person and be caring towards everyone. even those i dont like. its hard, but i'd better get to do it.. i guess i'd feel loads better if i do that rather than what my previous entry suggested..

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I would like to wish all fathers out there a happy Fathers' Day, as today is Fathers' Day. I wont dedicate anything on my blog to my Dad, cos i noe that he'll nvr see it anyway; he's not the internet savvy type. anw perhaps in some sorts this blog entry was dedicated to my Heavenly Father. And how appropriate is it that its Fathers' Day.