Alone Time

After weeks (ok, days) of anticipation, i've finally gotten my posting. n it is to the last possible place that any of us could hv ever imagined. Signal Institute. Albeit a temporary posting. but still, this serves as a reminder that anything can happen. now a weird question.. am i happy abt this? definitely a yeah..

i know there'll be pple who condemn this as a serious waste of 1 month - and i would completely agree - but rather than curse this waste of time, i've decided to embrace it. surely hundreds would want this benefits that the 73 of us are going to be doing. Saikang, they say.. but just how much Saikang CAN there be at Signal Institute? let alone divided by 73 pple... must jus continue to learn new stuff and continue on my quest to acquire new skills and knowledge.. hurhur.. a neverending crusade.

anw the as usual there's this post-polling day conspiracist theories and unfortunate 'exile'. somewhat it really reminds me of Survivor. with the whole james gomez saga..
i think honestly i can't tell a gov't how to run a country, but in the spirit of democracy one really shldnt try to shake the trust of pple.. especially up here in aljunied, where first of all THEY won with only 53%.. think its always better to play the good guy, even if one needs to make "unpractical" decisions.

Anw this is how i'm enjoying my end-of-course half-day off (hopefully, free; but then read the previous post - i'm a cynic of the word 'free').. think a whole bunch of them went to play DOTA. again.. wonder whats in it. and dont say "u need to play it to see the beauty of it" cos i've played it and there's no fun in it.

they went to play yesterday again - night's out - but then as usual my interest is definitely not there.. so i decided to go walking arnd chuachukang again (like i did last time). but then my plans were interrupted by shaneet who went to eat at the coffeeshop. n i complied, jus hoping that the cigarettes and lighters would not come out till i'm out of smoke-range. and the hopes were fullfilled lah..

then went to try to see pple making out - yeah completely bo liao.. but well.. yeah, there wasnt much to do anw.. and not much to see anyway for that matter.. shame..

but today i came home alone. mb i'm too much of a loner nowadays.. or mb its jus contradicting interests with the rest of my platoon mates.. and what's scary is i'm beginning to enjoy alone-time.. i mean, thankfully sang mentari (mr. sun) wasnt shining so brightly, or rather, si awan (the clouds) was taking his full impact. so the walk back was pleasant. and cheaper. and lunch was during the walk. so basically i saved time and money. hurhur.. yes i'm proud of it.

think currently i seem to be freer than most pple. including non-NS pple. which is quite amazing.. then since i don't seem to hv the same out-of-camp interests (DOTA and smoking) as the rest of my platoonmates, i always thought it wld be a good time to catch up with old friends.. but then, old frens, i forgot definitely hv a life too.. so that would mean that i'm stuck with my books. which, mind you, i've begun to enjoy reading..

Reading a Catholic book now.. most of the things i know already, which is why i doubt i'd ever need to go further to find a Truth.. but i think its because i hvnt embraced just how beautiful and amazing those things can be that i don't enjoy gg to mass etc. technically i DO enjoy gg to mass and everything - i don't go because i HAVE to..

somehow i was daydreaming jus now..

What is Right and what is Wrong? by human perception, that line between Right and Wrong can definitely move over time, because i believe that anything that is done by someone can be justified, at least by that someone. and just who is to say that his method of justification is morally Right or Wrong? when the line between Right and Wrong can be argued with.

Definitely there'll be a time, soon maybe, that even something that WAS so obviously Wrong, such as suicide, would be considered Right. because that line dividing Right and Wrong has shifted. perhaps even a literary text, or Law, would not be able to contain this dividing line - Laws are made to be bent and misinterpreted etc.. and the Church believes that THEY set that line between Right and Wrong, infallibly so, invariably claiming that either the Church is correct, or they're diabolical, as the book mentioned.

obviously there are certain authors and gnostic believers who know that conspiracy theories supporting the Church being diabolical would make them money.. and so it has. even to the extent of a movie showing...

so well, thats the way the world turns.. hv to live with it, for now.. hai..

okay out.