Finally

I'm back here blogging again.
Why did i miss last week?

• (a) I met up with friends more often than not and got to talk alot such that didnt hv much to blog about.
• (b) Com was down.

Haha... okay anw...

Yesterday was VJC sports day, lest you guys dont know yet. and yes, again i subject myself to that self-realisation of my inferiority in some aspects. well, yeah. i cant run, i cant dance, i cant cheer, etc... so yeah its normally quite a time-wasting, life-shortening, frustration-building experience. and it kinda started out that way.

Anw, i was nicely dozing off in the top tier, row Z, as some may call it, when some peggie house caps came to chase me off the stands and onto the track. why? for some 20x100 "NOVELTY" relay. they couldnt find enough pple apparently.

OF course i was reluctant. i mean. novelty relay nvr meant u were any good. in fact last year i could hv thanked the pe dept for not "allowing" me to run cos i was a college rep. anw, this year i had no such luck. no stipulations barring me from participating. unless of course i had run in any previous individual event. duh no.

but out of loyalty to my Purple Pegasus Army, i joined the race. well, not too bad lar. for a novelty race, there were a no. of trackers n relatively known runners among the runners. so i didnt feel that mediocre. haha.

mediocrity is the villain.

Anw, i got the baton n cheong as fast as i can, so much so i think perhaps some feared my legs might break at any time. i doubt. badminton player noe? hahahaha... i wouldnt noe lar, but apparently i gained ground on opponents.. woohoo, though i still wld attribute the 2nd place finish (yup u heard rite! wooohooo!) to some runners among they guys and also the girls, prob stacy n florence from wat i heard from the stands. congrats pple!

n for my 15-16s participation in that race, i got a medal! yay! another novelty medal to add to my growing collection. but this one's sweet lar, cos its prolly the last i'd ever get.

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okay, i've given up badminton. conc on perhaps what im reli good at i guess- maths. bleh, or i hv to subject myself to the knowledge that i'll be rooted in mediocrity as far as badminton is concerned for the rest of my life. not that i hate the sport. its still one of my greatest loves. but mr wong apparently "doubts" im vj-badminton-team std. *%^&. last two weeks lar. i'll cheer on. no doubt. i guess perhaps, enthusiasm is all im good for.
one final challenge set by colin, one final defeat for me. monday. my final game in 'competitive' badminton.

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I relise smthg. no way i miss andss. i jus miss the pple there - the students and most of the teachers. u guys are probably the best pple i've met. then there's vj pple. this is a generalisation, it doesnt apply to EVERYBODY. But its so difficult to make friends in vj cos so many pple are so two-faced man. n im already fed up of quite a no. of pple. prolly i'll start avoiding them. its better for my heart.

prolly if u were to try to guess who im trying to avoid, u wld get it wrong. cos i don mind pple who r perpetually bstrds. unless of course they're overdose it. or dose it disrespectfully. but in any case, i think i end up preferring some pple that most wld shun.

pple who r perpetually idiots are easier to understand. pple who are always good are rare. n most of them i think by now r my good friends.. =D. n they're, unless im mistaken the majority of pple who read this blog. haha... hii u guys!!!!

so bye to u other guys. dont take it too hard. loads'a other pple still like u. i hope. haha...

Anw, away from this subject.

i doubt i hurt any1, cos i think i've a fairly good idea of who comes here. even if u dont tag me. heex...

muahahaha do i hv that air of omniscience? hahahaha... joking..

n oh my goodness gracious being. i hv horrendously gathered a horrible mess in my room. my books. yikes.. full of nonsense. must clear up. n soon. cos i hv a frightening load of work for this labour day weekend.

• Mechanics - 7,8,9
• Statistics - 8,9
• Analysis - Appn Int.
• Chem - N-compounds, Polymers
• Physics - AC

Scary? i think so. cheong ah. got more energy. cos nvr go training. muahaha... okay.. gttg liao..

U-V rays. l = ??? haha..

Neverland

Peterpan's one, not MJ's; although the general concept is the same. So we all grow up. That's inevitable. And i guess over the past few days i hv "grown up". Some sort of sudden dawn of reckoning as i was lying on my bed a few nights ago. no. last night. or maybe this morning. whichever.

If truth be told, i think i really would prefer not to grow up, because its adding a lot of burden of responsibilities etc. u don't get excused for ur mistakes that easily, its not all fun and carefree. I guess thats idealism, and no one has an ideal life, unless its one completely with the Lord. well, i'd admit, thats a very happy life. and i guess i used to have it, no worries n such. but i gave it up subconsciously. n im gg to find it back. Yupz...

I've been too self-absorbed, n overly concerned with things of this world, when idealistically, nthg in this world is really joy-giving.

I'm not preaching here la, lest u might get that idea. im jus calling it as i see it. Trying to analyse why i keep becoming so miserable nowadays, when in the past i was practically so much less so. In any case i think i'm the wrong person to ask about Christianity on that high level, due to my inadequacies at self expression. I know a few articulate people with this forte. If so happens any1 might be interested lar...

Though i doubt pple wld want to give up the materialistic world we live in.

Its so weird, but self torture is quite an enjoyable experience. Paradox of life on earth i think. haha...

okay... smthg else, which i shared in another blog, but well here goes again.

Self-Pity

is a constrictor of potential. It stops us from reaching a goal that we can set, and tt we might achieve. Because we seek refuge in self pity. Its in some senses a form of escapism to say that "we can't do it, bcos we're jus unable to". But tt's not true is it?

For example in the 3rd set of a badminton game, its easier to claim we're tired, n sumhow it seems like a valid reason to 'sorta' throw the game. Me? i'm mentally weak. (tt in itself is a demonstration of how mentally weak i am. Self-pity) But here let me try to make amends. I'll try to be stronger lar...

n yayness my spa n pw r over.

so on to a lighter 'topic'

But damn am i sooo behind my tutorials. i think. maybe. there's maths stats 6,7 and mechanics 7.2 (the latter being vomit-blood standard). n i hvnt even mentioned the upcoming prospect of the Geometric Distribution which has been said to be very very very hard. ah heck.. take it in my stride lar...

Okay, any1 wanna go out n study some day? cos its so difficult to study at home lor.. in the end i think im going to hv to do all my hw in sch before i go home every night. sowmya lend me ur house if they kick me out of sch.. hahahaha... jkjk...

den go home n happy happy sleep immediately. n im not exaggerating.

Badminton. ah jus play lar. bit tired of it in my opinion. sian. i wanna learn sum new sport le..

okay lar, my hw is beckoning. so ciao~!

~ultravioletlight~

wahhhhh

now i feel like trying out a new blog design.. so i'll try lar...

today rush to finish writing, but since my vow was to write every week, so erm... see how much i can write lar..

still hungry. ate lunch too early today. cos i was bored. now dinner time... n waiting for the rest of the familie..

okay anw...

this past week has been ermmmm okay on the whole... in a studying sense, the word is "atrocious" though, cos i think i hvnt reli studied enough. i've spent my free time more so playing/ watching TV/ watching liverpool lose. ok la good enough

okay finished. times up. bye!