SPA

ignorant folk out there, this means school-base practical assessment (i think) n its not fun at all. tmr i got spa. capacitance discharging, or so i hear... i think that much is disclosed... sadly, im quite afraid of this assessment. here's why.

Last time i tried doing an electical experiment, it went completely awefully amazingly wrong... for some reason, the voltmeter, n the current charges, seem to hv acquired lives n minds of their own, not to mention free will. exactly. they acquired free will. the free will not to flow. n the circuit was correct. weird. current charges are weird.
But at the end of the experiment suddenly they decided to come to life. anw, its better for those living thinking current charges to decide to oppose my direction during the practice session than during the real spa rite... so jus hopefully nthg bad goes wrong tmr.. X-es fingers...

Anyway i m sick today.. bleahh... so i was leaking from nose (n mouth) thru-out todays lessons. used one whole tissue packet plus a few other pieces. unfortunately, due to reasons previously defined i HAVE to go to school tmr. don want!!!! oh wellz.. sianz...

The physics lecturer lost his cool today, n just stopped teaching. jus let us copy the slides. and i didnt, cos i too, sorta lost my cool at his actions. but understandable, once i consider the scenario. in any case he lost his temper whilst i was not in the lt. i was washing my leaking face in the toilet at that time. anw alternatives always exist. just takes an opportunist to find them.

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tmr april fools day. happy april fools. don get fooled too much lahz..

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I dont want to go to school tomorrow.

I want Chocolate. think Muffins. Muahaha...

n karthik stole meghna's muffin. n madhu took one more than her share.
Muffins drive pple to a life of crime.

poor meghna. with an opportunistic sister.

i want Muffins. n Brownies. n Cookies.

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ooh cuteness...
the onli way i'll get over one, is to fall for another.

~Out of the Tiger's reach, into the Crocodile's mouth~

A word to reignite the flame

in some senses applicable

Fortunately that word wont come

Thankfully

okay tt was my random thoughts of the hour...

bEnP~

Declaration
of independence?

sorta. independence from badminton. officially: i'm super-xian wid badminton already, n suddenly im beginning to feel like im joining that wave of (better) andersonians who hv given up on badminton with VJ as a staplehood of life. namely ruyan n lau, the more pragmatic pple. me? a more (ironically) "romantic" view towards badminton - as a fun sport

no doubt it is. depending on whu u play with, n how la.

i mean, i doubt that game was played with much graciousness, which is why i think i'm not too happy at the fact of being involved with the game lar.. bh man...

oh n i think i was on court moving abt for 1hr (less than that), n watching pple play badminton cum lying down on my back for abt 3hrs... cant wait for season to be over, den i can finally be rid of all this nonsense...

anw im feeling much better... chatting with jen.. n im freeeeeee! dotzies...

i'll go back to my original stance abt badminton. i'll jus play when im asked to, but i shant waste away my saturday mornins, im going to do smthg fruitful instead of stoning for 3hrs.. i'll decide on wat fruitful thing i should do later...

today is holy saturday. n tmr is easter.

the New Light is coming.

n oso this weekend is a long weekend. so it feels like sunday already. except no church. yar... okaay..

over n out! =P

P.S. shld ur wife be ur best friend? thought for the day...

A thousand and one

A thousand and one reasons to curse today. Ranging from the fact that there exists school tomorrow, to the fact that blogger home page was in CHINESEEE!!!! for crying out loud. hmm in a normal state of mind tt aint gonna irritate or annoy me, but well, there exists school tmr.
Making one misconception clear - i dont enjoy school. especially lessons. friends are a good counterweight. but then theres msn. n outings with friends without the lessons. so well, school is not irreplacable is it? my vision of a utopian society is one where there's no school.

obviously this vision is somewhat similar to the Trunchbull's vision of the perfect school - without children (Matilda, Roald Dahl) - impractical n ridiculous. so why school? to get smarter. to get a better job. to get more $money$. to apparently land more pleasures and joy.

here i dont make the clear distinction between pleasure n joy. shall refrain from preaching. in any case, u hv to work to survive in this world. n if ur like me, n would put under "fave pastime" the word 'sleeping', good luck to u. tt being sad. good luck to me.

so lets jus try to face school knowing that prospects are just going to carry on getting worse and worse. i mean - each day that passes, we get closer to our a levels. so in anyway of lookin at it, yesterday is always better than today. odd perspectives.

YET.

There are a thousand and one reasons to celebrate. Each day that draws nearer we draw nearer to the happy times of life to come. perhaps seeing our grandchildren, perhaps seeing our Maker. N we complete another day of our fragile existence. and blessed one, for it always can get worse. so i shall count my blessing for today. obviously not reaching till a thousand and one.

1. i'm practically rid of any strong feelings for any particular person. i'll drink to that.
2. i'm free of the chains of any bounding.
3. i had a wonderful trip in bangkok. well it was a mad rush, but that adds to the adrenalin rush...
4. i'm alive n so are all my loved ones.
5. i've got wonderful friends. and enemies perhaps. still thankful for them too...
6. there IS a liverpool game today against everton. we are going to win! so i put it down here. in any case if they lose, they lose tomorrow since the game ends tmr morning. so its not reli a blessing for today rite?
7. i'm going in utterly unprepared for lessons tmr. (how's tt a blessing? somehow it feels like a liberation, leading to point no.2. the full ouch will be felt tmr.)
8. i'm completely unprepared for the chem test on tuesday. nope. i am prepared. prepared to fail. i'm completely prepared to make my chem teacher happy n fail. after all i think i'd deserve it. especially in her eyes.
9. i've got no PE tmr, unlike some unlucky blokes. sneers* haha..
10. n yet i still can barely do 3 pull ups on average. right back at me eh?
11. oOo a full football team of happy thoughts! capped off with the most wonderful happy thought of all. My God Loves Me!

So here comes that above-mentioned preaching of the difference between pleasure and joy. joy lasts. pleasure is intense, but doesnt last. which is better? ask yourself. the pleasure of a fling, or the joy of friends =P...

BOTH! of course
HAHAHA kidding~

Singing/Signing off today, VeryCrazy(inthai) @ blogspot.com.

~bEnP~

Going ^-^ UP. downwards.

yayness the holidays are here true n true. n i spent my first day of hols... yeah go on, guess - PLAYING - surprise surprise... oughtn't hv been the case? no. cos today is day of resting. n tmr is day-to-go-out-wid-old-frens. yupz... looking forward.

anyway looking backwards... i think i just blogged yesterday... which is quite uncommon for me. i mean. twice in two days? ok.. nvm off the topic. im blogging now cos theres no one online. not surprisingly - look at the time. LATERR... yeah... n i think i needed to talk to somebody this afternoon.. by "somebody" here i mean "anybody", not "some particular person".

though i'd hv settled for that too... Anyway... the point being, i was lying in my bed in the afternoon, quite tired but cant get to sleep cos i'd be thinking abt some stuff... stuff i think i'd reli be better off forgetting.

Not as serious as one might think. more like..

• 3pronged attack not working as a distraction
• nonchalance not working either
• n onli at certain times...

could be disasteeeeerous. (deliberate spelling error)

i'd get it off my chest before i get married. or engaged for that matter. just see how it unravels -o__ - before it gets halted in it tracks... o or o_______ _ _ to infinity. dreamz... o_o...

wide-eyed wonder.

i thought a communication blockade wld guide me on the right track. but guess not.. mental blockade too... anw tt reminiscence is probably the reason why im bloggin tonite... maybe i'd be fortunate n 'the madness of my com' wld decide not to publish this post... i donno why im saying that.. yeah... needed some means of expression. playin piano jus not working today...

why the blockade? why the fear of telling? bcos its nvr worked out perhaps? or bcos this is probably the onli time i'd ever thought it was right... i hv no idea. n i need that confirmation. i need it, but im afraid of getting it.

i mean, signs point towards -ve answer. n i think this time wld probably be worse than the other times... wld it be possible tt it wld be mutual? hmmm.. not likely, knowing me.

i aint good enough? bleah.. i'd rather be thinking that way actually..

hmm im gingerly treading ground so as to conceal identity. last person in the last possible place on earth.. sadd... maybe a good nights rest wld make me forget. otherwise goodness knows how i'd be able to concentrate on work when i hv to do it..

i've talked abt 7-9 paras abt what most (all probably) would find incomprehensible... sorry abt that.. needed to let smthgs out..

anyway today i watched three movies! - cinderella story, star wars episode V, and Shark Tale. coolios.. it was my day of rest after all... n i caught the trailer for episode III.. looks sooo cool.. hope the good guys win that battle though...

must get back in shape. n study.

oh n we going bangkok on thurs. way cool.. shopping trip. no time to visit old friends. awww... in all seriousness.. mb next time when we hv a longer break. n if i pass my napfa. so tt means must work harder on my arm n shoulder strength.. yeah.. n smashing power. vj-dynamyt.

yeah whatever.

mug GP. do tutorials. eeek tutorials. but good thing - i don seem to hv any school over the hols. which is cool. *boasts* (while chucklin' at the poor souls who hv to go to sch). but i got laughed at back by pammy. "school finishes in a month" n now is study break...

droolz...

must write letter to pple overseas. make a note. carol, jen, keegan. soon. i'm jus not good at keeping those kind of promises. sorry pple! porous memory. n procastination gene. those of u studying medicine/ bio-engineering help me isolate that gene... thx! ok kidding.. i jus absolutely do NOT condone bio-engineering. well except maybe in some very special cases. (keegan u are last cos u called me the other day) yeahh... i'd reli ought to stop doing that yeahh? yeahh.

tmr k? tmr is friends-day. my declaration. whichever of u 3 read this tell me k? i'd wanna noe whu actually reads my blog... whu does anyway??? hmmm... Shudder to find out...

okay time for my fave section: Random Verses
today's random verses comes from a song i like a lot - Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder if you ever think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your precious memory

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
And I I
Don't wanna let you know
I I
Drown in your memory
I I
Don't wanna let this go
I I
Don't

okay that's it from me, bEnP on verycrazy(in thai).blogspot.com... see you on my next rendition of yesterday, today. (if u made sense of that past sentence, tell me too. but if u didnt, ur about the same as me. poor you)

bidding
you
adieu~

benjamin tm

Moving on...

damn i jus typed sooo long the other day n then suddenly the whole system went 'kaputt'.. oh wells.. not my luck...

ok first things first: All-England Update

• Mens singles final between Chen Hong n Lin Dan both of China. n i support Lin Dan (count the no. of times "winner" appears on his accomplishment-list) but he lost.. bleh jus my luck. my jinx. next time pple if u want to win dont ask me to support u k?
  I think i'm a jinx.
• men's doubles between china goodness-knows-wat-their-names-are and denmarks Rasmussen n Paaske. I like Rasmussen. buy my dad's supporting them. so im for china. for some reason. goodness-knows-wat-reason.
  
  oOo btw pple do you noe i hv Jonas Rasmussen's autograph!!! yeah...
• womens game all china affair, no one actually watches that anymore... might as well call that even All China instead of All England.
• oh but there's at least one english team this year - in the mixed doubles final. good home support at least.

yar for full details jus go to IBF website.

Anyway second thing's second.

What has happened this week.. hmm... ooh yeah keegan called from down under.. yeah.. haha aussie accent developing and all.. well.. yeah.. den there was this essay writing competition in NUS.. so i had to skip training... SAD lar... they gave us five topics. sounds good rite? but here's the catch - all five topics were all abt religion. sensitive issue. n me being me can have reli strong views regarding this topic. hope i was jus reasonably unbiased lar...

den after that i jus went to the open house at NUS too... was with sowmya (who was in the comptn with me) n marie n her friend... so yeah... den eat at mac(s)... blew a bomb. man. bk so much cheaper. 390 for a whole meal... look at all the monies!.. bleh...

all this time the whole family save colin was at m'sia, hving apparently the time of their life. well mb not. place buzzing with cedarians. cant be too pleasant? haha... rephrase: place buzzing with Girls. still not too pleasant. den today went down to sba to play badminton (i mean wat else DOES one to at SBA?)... there were ex-nationals. my honour to be there. i'd improve now. i hv room to improve. contrary to popular believe that i've reached my peak and too lousy by nature.

• note to self: improve footwork.

Anw after that went amk study with wZine... stress when u cant do questions i noe... yeah.. all s paper. better start muggin s paper

Things to Mug

• GP
• Maths S
• Everything else... damn...

yaddaya-yaddaya - then church - den go out awhile - den im here.

Hi.

=D

oOops!

Oh wells... I missed last weekend.. but i think it was soo hard weekend. i don't noe why.

Anyway.. i doubt anyone actually comes here, so to whomever it may concern, sorry for missing, tho i think i aint apologising to anyone.. oh wells..

OMG i failed my GP essay! and all because i mentioned a few good points of totalitarianism... bleah... so much for balance. and i was onli given 67% of the time to do it. sad case. n since all my supposed evaluation of my points were located in the latter para's that didnt come out due to the lack of time, yar, my whole essay lacked evaluation. AND i put in effort in that lar!

without effort i get 16/50
with effort i get 19/50.

i might as well not put in effort lar!!! blardy hell... *i feel reli shortchanged*

n he told me not to write politics! hmph... if i listen to him most of the time, this is where i stop! come on lar, its the onli gp topic worth doing. mass media is HIS fave topic, not mine... jus hv to read up more.

• I vow to start mugging GP.

Well, there's kaleidoscope (n kaleidoscope online exclusively to me) n then theres research to be done on my pet topics. i'll show him! idiot. (its not in my character to insult teachers in this way mind u... but well, im not in a 'normal' state-of-mind.

OH n Mechanics is driving me up the wall. or well, off the wall. Impulses n Impacts. Oblique impacts...

~!~

"mv sin f = mu cos q ".

and the restitution rubbish. got headache. n the qn asks to prove to 0.185. n all i can get is 0.815! blardy hell. stuupid f maths mechanics.

u reli shld try catchin me at a better time

perhaps during the hols!

okie how to feel better after a blog: realise that well, there are onli TWO more school days left! (one and a half preferably), weeee... living on...

no. chugging on. dragging my feet as i walk slowly down to the corridor to the march hols.

random verse that comes to my head

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone