Ok it has been ages. One whole term in fact. Btw, it is the last day of term one. - pause for celebrations - Realli hv to be thankful for the hols.. VJC is pretty stressful, and its onli the first three months. Terrified of what is in store. But alas, curiousity overcomes all fear. Curious fear.
A term plagued by ups and downs has drawn to a close. Made a huge decision on 19th Feb. Never been happier because of that... Strange... But the curious fear is omnipresent in my life. Ubiquitous. My mind is plagued by doubt. Doubt in what lies ahead. The future is bleak, not a great chance of happiness... But... (from yesterday's reading: 'A blessing on the man who puts his trust in the Lord, with the Lord for his hope. [Jer. 17:7]' - quite appropriate reading... yeah... miraculous ways...
Just had Pre-U seminar selection "interview" today. Really hoping against hope and chance that i will make it. But i shall place my trust in Him. That reali would help reduce chance of mental breakdown, and to be plagued by the dominance of materialism and things of the flesh and of man.
At Peace again.