Quick update on the abyss of nothing-ness that
In many ways this line sticks to me - "the night is darkest before the dawn". I heard it from batman; but who knows where THEY ripped it off from. Personally (obviously) i don't care. Fact: The night is darkest before the dawn.
Its been the case with my life too. Presumably i hit rock bottom a couple of times (over the past 2 years in fact) - don't worry i'm fine now - only to discover that i actually had a diamond-drill that could in fact dig further down. AND a couple of times probably dug into an underground reservoir and drowned too.
But nevertheless, i reckon i've come out on the other side of the globe - even if apparently my body/health doesnt seem to want to come out as well. And now i see the daylight.
So my life seems to be headed in a positive x-direction. Academically - i love my modules much much better than last year. Socially - i know more people in this one semester than i've known for the past 3 semesters. Physically - ok let's not get there; hopefully the fitness (and health) will come back soon.
Btw as I write this i'm having a cough. And probably hypochondria.
I still hate chemistry - no change since JC. Fortunately this is my last Chem module (Inorganic Chem) and for this module, I bought the textbook, so I might as well butter it and swallow it whole.
Ironically a disastrous Finance Quiz (today) has brought a dawning over me that its pointless to worry (like some people) about other people in the course doing better than me - even though technically the grading is by a Gaussian Distribution.
You can't control how other people fare. You just have to do YOUR best and get it right.
Perhaps in time the trauma of last year's B- grade in Metallic Properties will fade away.
Just as perhaps time has healed my soul.
And just as it has brought the Dawn.