Today I hit rock bottom. I heard that God will make himself seen to us when we hit rock bottom. And so when I hit rock bottom, I jus knelt down and prayed. Not normal prayer, which I realise i've been missing. Prayers of desperation. And he answered.
Slowly one by one, the obstacles melted. Even while it was happening, I doubted. I felt the bridge shake in my head. I felt implosions almost buckling me to my knees. And then I let go, and let God.
And he gave me a bonus at the very end - I met Colin from SFX. Who's working at the place of my dream job. Institute of Materials Research! I'm thinking of doing an internship there some day. We'll see.
Thursday, August 28
Thursday, August 21
Phyllis Returns!
My first agenda on today's List is Blogging. yup...
So, one more week has passed and uni life is beginning to adjust itself upon me. Rather. i'm adjusting my life to it. Still for now doing stuff tt i like and am enjoying it whole-heartedly. Tutorials are starting next week and labs are starting soon. So my life's jus going to get more and more busy, esp with tuition and all. and apparetnly i think i'm taking 5 core modules. So perhap;s that makes life a bit harder.
The consolation is that i enjoy my work. For e.g. I nearly flipped with excitement (shan't repeat the use of the word 'orgasm') when i finally received my physics tutorial! It is sooo totally exciting! And challenging, albeit a simple reference to my F-maths notes would enable me to solve all possilbe physics questions for this semester, i feel.
(I used to call the subject physics by her name phyllis and i fell in love with her)
On the duller note, i'm beginning to wonder if i can actually sustain this level of enthusiasm for the next 5 years. We'll see once tutorials start.
Second on my list is Homework. My musings can wait. Perhaps go find the musings of certain cotton-based critters.
So, one more week has passed and uni life is beginning to adjust itself upon me. Rather. i'm adjusting my life to it. Still for now doing stuff tt i like and am enjoying it whole-heartedly. Tutorials are starting next week and labs are starting soon. So my life's jus going to get more and more busy, esp with tuition and all. and apparetnly i think i'm taking 5 core modules. So perhap;s that makes life a bit harder.
The consolation is that i enjoy my work. For e.g. I nearly flipped with excitement (shan't repeat the use of the word 'orgasm') when i finally received my physics tutorial! It is sooo totally exciting! And challenging, albeit a simple reference to my F-maths notes would enable me to solve all possilbe physics questions for this semester, i feel.
(I used to call the subject physics by her name phyllis and i fell in love with her)
On the duller note, i'm beginning to wonder if i can actually sustain this level of enthusiasm for the next 5 years. We'll see once tutorials start.
Second on my list is Homework. My musings can wait. Perhaps go find the musings of certain cotton-based critters.
Thursday, August 14
Free Day
First I have to thank a few groups of pple for this wonderful occasion. Without them this Free Day couldnt hv taken place.
1. My dearest Vibs, whoarranged my timetable for me helped me arrange my timetable
2. Engin Fac, for giving me my preallocated modules such that there was a possibiltiy of a free day.
3. A Biz Fac screw up tt allowed me to bid for my own modules OTOT.
4. God who oversaw all of this.
Yanyway, a free day may seem to be commonplace (most pple seem to hv it), though i think less common for DDP pple, so i'm thankful. In any case it wasnt much use as yet, seeing as heavy duty work hasnt started as yet, and now is apparently (honeymoon) period.
As for now i'm addicted to work. There's smthg wrong with me. I woke up today morning thinking its Friday n i hv to go to school. Urgh. Probably this enthusiasm will die out soon. Or perhaps it won't. It might be fuelled by the fact that i'm back in my element - my element is so not running arnd like a monkey arnd monkey bars, keeping fit, being commanding tt is so prized by the military. Nor is it the bed, as prized by Pawai.
Its probably the quest for knowledge - the continuous and never-ending quest for omniscience. Or at least towards a minor negligible fraction of it.
Well known fact - the higher we study, the more questions we have. This trend continues, and we realise that we just don't know anything abt this world.
Perhaps stop with the realisation that apples fall towards the ground. And leave it there.
Anyway on a side note, since Elmo has tagged this blog, I'd like to let him know that i caught him doing it.
Him and harry the horse.
I'm watching you two...
1. My dearest Vibs, who
2. Engin Fac, for giving me my preallocated modules such that there was a possibiltiy of a free day.
3. A Biz Fac screw up tt allowed me to bid for my own modules OTOT.
4. God who oversaw all of this.
Yanyway, a free day may seem to be commonplace (most pple seem to hv it), though i think less common for DDP pple, so i'm thankful. In any case it wasnt much use as yet, seeing as heavy duty work hasnt started as yet, and now is apparently (honeymoon) period.
As for now i'm addicted to work. There's smthg wrong with me. I woke up today morning thinking its Friday n i hv to go to school. Urgh. Probably this enthusiasm will die out soon. Or perhaps it won't. It might be fuelled by the fact that i'm back in my element - my element is so not running arnd like a monkey arnd monkey bars, keeping fit, being commanding tt is so prized by the military. Nor is it the bed, as prized by Pawai.
Its probably the quest for knowledge - the continuous and never-ending quest for omniscience. Or at least towards a minor negligible fraction of it.
Well known fact - the higher we study, the more questions we have. This trend continues, and we realise that we just don't know anything abt this world.
Perhaps stop with the realisation that apples fall towards the ground. And leave it there.
Anyway on a side note, since Elmo has tagged this blog, I'd like to let him know that i caught him doing it.
Him and harry the horse.I'm watching you two...
Wednesday, August 13
2 Days Later
Just two measly days into my new life, and i'm drained. I'm drained to the extend that I feel that my temperature is abnormally high by the end of the day, teetering on the boundaries between normalcy and the flu. I can only hope this is temporary.
I'm not complaining. I absolutely adore my subjects. Not in a forced, nerdy, muggerish way i.e. I don't spam lecturers with incessant questions, and cling on to each word he says etc. In an adoration-of-it relationship. Come on, what else should i have expected taking my two favourite subjects, and merging them to create three highly interesting modules. (physics + maths = physics + introductory material science + maths).
After all the only subject i loved more than physics at a level was physics S paper. Which was, as best as i can describe, orgasmic. Figuratively. Duh.
I take 5 modules. I only hope the remaining 2, which i start only later on, can even be half as enticing as the first 3...
I've met so many pple so far - mainly old friends/acquaintances from various eras of my life dating from pri sch to engin camp.
Honestly, its quite a refreshing change to be back in an academic environment with (generally) like minded individuals. RSAF and Pulau Pawai will soon become a mere distant memory, albeit a fond one.
On a more sour note, i've finally been bored during a math lecture. My maths lecturer is of unprecedented calibre and makes Mr Foo SeeBon of VJC seem to be a captivating charismatic lecturer.
Time to Sleep.
Cheers~
I'm not complaining. I absolutely adore my subjects. Not in a forced, nerdy, muggerish way i.e. I don't spam lecturers with incessant questions, and cling on to each word he says etc. In an adoration-of-it relationship. Come on, what else should i have expected taking my two favourite subjects, and merging them to create three highly interesting modules. (physics + maths = physics + introductory material science + maths).
After all the only subject i loved more than physics at a level was physics S paper. Which was, as best as i can describe, orgasmic. Figuratively. Duh.
I take 5 modules. I only hope the remaining 2, which i start only later on, can even be half as enticing as the first 3...
I've met so many pple so far - mainly old friends/acquaintances from various eras of my life dating from pri sch to engin camp.
Honestly, its quite a refreshing change to be back in an academic environment with (generally) like minded individuals. RSAF and Pulau Pawai will soon become a mere distant memory, albeit a fond one.
On a more sour note, i've finally been bored during a math lecture. My maths lecturer is of unprecedented calibre and makes Mr Foo SeeBon of VJC seem to be a captivating charismatic lecturer.
Time to Sleep.
Cheers~
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