SPA

ignorant folk out there, this means school-base practical assessment (i think) n its not fun at all. tmr i got spa. capacitance discharging, or so i hear... i think that much is disclosed... sadly, im quite afraid of this assessment. here's why.

Last time i tried doing an electical experiment, it went completely awefully amazingly wrong... for some reason, the voltmeter, n the current charges, seem to hv acquired lives n minds of their own, not to mention free will. exactly. they acquired free will. the free will not to flow. n the circuit was correct. weird. current charges are weird.
But at the end of the experiment suddenly they decided to come to life. anw, its better for those living thinking current charges to decide to oppose my direction during the practice session than during the real spa rite... so jus hopefully nthg bad goes wrong tmr.. X-es fingers...

Anyway i m sick today.. bleahh... so i was leaking from nose (n mouth) thru-out todays lessons. used one whole tissue packet plus a few other pieces. unfortunately, due to reasons previously defined i HAVE to go to school tmr. don want!!!! oh wellz.. sianz...

The physics lecturer lost his cool today, n just stopped teaching. jus let us copy the slides. and i didnt, cos i too, sorta lost my cool at his actions. but understandable, once i consider the scenario. in any case he lost his temper whilst i was not in the lt. i was washing my leaking face in the toilet at that time. anw alternatives always exist. just takes an opportunist to find them.

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tmr april fools day. happy april fools. don get fooled too much lahz..

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I dont want to go to school tomorrow.

I want Chocolate. think Muffins. Muahaha...

n karthik stole meghna's muffin. n madhu took one more than her share.
Muffins drive pple to a life of crime.

poor meghna. with an opportunistic sister.

i want Muffins. n Brownies. n Cookies.

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ooh cuteness...
the onli way i'll get over one, is to fall for another.

~Out of the Tiger's reach, into the Crocodile's mouth~

A word to reignite the flame

in some senses applicable

Fortunately that word wont come

Thankfully

okay tt was my random thoughts of the hour...

bEnP~

Declaration
of independence?

sorta. independence from badminton. officially: i'm super-xian wid badminton already, n suddenly im beginning to feel like im joining that wave of (better) andersonians who hv given up on badminton with VJ as a staplehood of life. namely ruyan n lau, the more pragmatic pple. me? a more (ironically) "romantic" view towards badminton - as a fun sport

no doubt it is. depending on whu u play with, n how la.

i mean, i doubt that game was played with much graciousness, which is why i think i'm not too happy at the fact of being involved with the game lar.. bh man...

oh n i think i was on court moving abt for 1hr (less than that), n watching pple play badminton cum lying down on my back for abt 3hrs... cant wait for season to be over, den i can finally be rid of all this nonsense...

anw im feeling much better... chatting with jen.. n im freeeeeee! dotzies...

i'll go back to my original stance abt badminton. i'll jus play when im asked to, but i shant waste away my saturday mornins, im going to do smthg fruitful instead of stoning for 3hrs.. i'll decide on wat fruitful thing i should do later...

today is holy saturday. n tmr is easter.

the New Light is coming.

n oso this weekend is a long weekend. so it feels like sunday already. except no church. yar... okaay..

over n out! =P

P.S. shld ur wife be ur best friend? thought for the day...

A thousand and one

A thousand and one reasons to curse today. Ranging from the fact that there exists school tomorrow, to the fact that blogger home page was in CHINESEEE!!!! for crying out loud. hmm in a normal state of mind tt aint gonna irritate or annoy me, but well, there exists school tmr.
Making one misconception clear - i dont enjoy school. especially lessons. friends are a good counterweight. but then theres msn. n outings with friends without the lessons. so well, school is not irreplacable is it? my vision of a utopian society is one where there's no school.

obviously this vision is somewhat similar to the Trunchbull's vision of the perfect school - without children (Matilda, Roald Dahl) - impractical n ridiculous. so why school? to get smarter. to get a better job. to get more $money$. to apparently land more pleasures and joy.

here i dont make the clear distinction between pleasure n joy. shall refrain from preaching. in any case, u hv to work to survive in this world. n if ur like me, n would put under "fave pastime" the word 'sleeping', good luck to u. tt being sad. good luck to me.

so lets jus try to face school knowing that prospects are just going to carry on getting worse and worse. i mean - each day that passes, we get closer to our a levels. so in anyway of lookin at it, yesterday is always better than today. odd perspectives.

YET.

There are a thousand and one reasons to celebrate. Each day that draws nearer we draw nearer to the happy times of life to come. perhaps seeing our grandchildren, perhaps seeing our Maker. N we complete another day of our fragile existence. and blessed one, for it always can get worse. so i shall count my blessing for today. obviously not reaching till a thousand and one.

1. i'm practically rid of any strong feelings for any particular person. i'll drink to that.
2. i'm free of the chains of any bounding.
3. i had a wonderful trip in bangkok. well it was a mad rush, but that adds to the adrenalin rush...
4. i'm alive n so are all my loved ones.
5. i've got wonderful friends. and enemies perhaps. still thankful for them too...
6. there IS a liverpool game today against everton. we are going to win! so i put it down here. in any case if they lose, they lose tomorrow since the game ends tmr morning. so its not reli a blessing for today rite?
7. i'm going in utterly unprepared for lessons tmr. (how's tt a blessing? somehow it feels like a liberation, leading to point no.2. the full ouch will be felt tmr.)
8. i'm completely unprepared for the chem test on tuesday. nope. i am prepared. prepared to fail. i'm completely prepared to make my chem teacher happy n fail. after all i think i'd deserve it. especially in her eyes.
9. i've got no PE tmr, unlike some unlucky blokes. sneers* haha..
10. n yet i still can barely do 3 pull ups on average. right back at me eh?
11. oOo a full football team of happy thoughts! capped off with the most wonderful happy thought of all. My God Loves Me!

So here comes that above-mentioned preaching of the difference between pleasure and joy. joy lasts. pleasure is intense, but doesnt last. which is better? ask yourself. the pleasure of a fling, or the joy of friends =P...

BOTH! of course
HAHAHA kidding~

Singing/Signing off today, VeryCrazy(inthai) @ blogspot.com.

~bEnP~

Going ^-^ UP. downwards.

yayness the holidays are here true n true. n i spent my first day of hols... yeah go on, guess - PLAYING - surprise surprise... oughtn't hv been the case? no. cos today is day of resting. n tmr is day-to-go-out-wid-old-frens. yupz... looking forward.

anyway looking backwards... i think i just blogged yesterday... which is quite uncommon for me. i mean. twice in two days? ok.. nvm off the topic. im blogging now cos theres no one online. not surprisingly - look at the time. LATERR... yeah... n i think i needed to talk to somebody this afternoon.. by "somebody" here i mean "anybody", not "some particular person".

though i'd hv settled for that too... Anyway... the point being, i was lying in my bed in the afternoon, quite tired but cant get to sleep cos i'd be thinking abt some stuff... stuff i think i'd reli be better off forgetting.

Not as serious as one might think. more like..

• 3pronged attack not working as a distraction
• nonchalance not working either
• n onli at certain times...

could be disasteeeeerous. (deliberate spelling error)

i'd get it off my chest before i get married. or engaged for that matter. just see how it unravels -o__ - before it gets halted in it tracks... o or o_______ _ _ to infinity. dreamz... o_o...

wide-eyed wonder.

i thought a communication blockade wld guide me on the right track. but guess not.. mental blockade too... anw tt reminiscence is probably the reason why im bloggin tonite... maybe i'd be fortunate n 'the madness of my com' wld decide not to publish this post... i donno why im saying that.. yeah... needed some means of expression. playin piano jus not working today...

why the blockade? why the fear of telling? bcos its nvr worked out perhaps? or bcos this is probably the onli time i'd ever thought it was right... i hv no idea. n i need that confirmation. i need it, but im afraid of getting it.

i mean, signs point towards -ve answer. n i think this time wld probably be worse than the other times... wld it be possible tt it wld be mutual? hmmm.. not likely, knowing me.

i aint good enough? bleah.. i'd rather be thinking that way actually..

hmm im gingerly treading ground so as to conceal identity. last person in the last possible place on earth.. sadd... maybe a good nights rest wld make me forget. otherwise goodness knows how i'd be able to concentrate on work when i hv to do it..

i've talked abt 7-9 paras abt what most (all probably) would find incomprehensible... sorry abt that.. needed to let smthgs out..

anyway today i watched three movies! - cinderella story, star wars episode V, and Shark Tale. coolios.. it was my day of rest after all... n i caught the trailer for episode III.. looks sooo cool.. hope the good guys win that battle though...

must get back in shape. n study.

oh n we going bangkok on thurs. way cool.. shopping trip. no time to visit old friends. awww... in all seriousness.. mb next time when we hv a longer break. n if i pass my napfa. so tt means must work harder on my arm n shoulder strength.. yeah.. n smashing power. vj-dynamyt.

yeah whatever.

mug GP. do tutorials. eeek tutorials. but good thing - i don seem to hv any school over the hols. which is cool. *boasts* (while chucklin' at the poor souls who hv to go to sch). but i got laughed at back by pammy. "school finishes in a month" n now is study break...

droolz...

must write letter to pple overseas. make a note. carol, jen, keegan. soon. i'm jus not good at keeping those kind of promises. sorry pple! porous memory. n procastination gene. those of u studying medicine/ bio-engineering help me isolate that gene... thx! ok kidding.. i jus absolutely do NOT condone bio-engineering. well except maybe in some very special cases. (keegan u are last cos u called me the other day) yeahh... i'd reli ought to stop doing that yeahh? yeahh.

tmr k? tmr is friends-day. my declaration. whichever of u 3 read this tell me k? i'd wanna noe whu actually reads my blog... whu does anyway??? hmmm... Shudder to find out...

okay time for my fave section: Random Verses
today's random verses comes from a song i like a lot - Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder if you ever think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your precious memory

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
And I I
Don't wanna let you know
I I
Drown in your memory
I I
Don't wanna let this go
I I
Don't

okay that's it from me, bEnP on verycrazy(in thai).blogspot.com... see you on my next rendition of yesterday, today. (if u made sense of that past sentence, tell me too. but if u didnt, ur about the same as me. poor you)

bidding
you
adieu~

benjamin tm

Moving on...

damn i jus typed sooo long the other day n then suddenly the whole system went 'kaputt'.. oh wells.. not my luck...

ok first things first: All-England Update

• Mens singles final between Chen Hong n Lin Dan both of China. n i support Lin Dan (count the no. of times "winner" appears on his accomplishment-list) but he lost.. bleh jus my luck. my jinx. next time pple if u want to win dont ask me to support u k?
  I think i'm a jinx.
• men's doubles between china goodness-knows-wat-their-names-are and denmarks Rasmussen n Paaske. I like Rasmussen. buy my dad's supporting them. so im for china. for some reason. goodness-knows-wat-reason.
  
  oOo btw pple do you noe i hv Jonas Rasmussen's autograph!!! yeah...
• womens game all china affair, no one actually watches that anymore... might as well call that even All China instead of All England.
• oh but there's at least one english team this year - in the mixed doubles final. good home support at least.

yar for full details jus go to IBF website.

Anyway second thing's second.

What has happened this week.. hmm... ooh yeah keegan called from down under.. yeah.. haha aussie accent developing and all.. well.. yeah.. den there was this essay writing competition in NUS.. so i had to skip training... SAD lar... they gave us five topics. sounds good rite? but here's the catch - all five topics were all abt religion. sensitive issue. n me being me can have reli strong views regarding this topic. hope i was jus reasonably unbiased lar...

den after that i jus went to the open house at NUS too... was with sowmya (who was in the comptn with me) n marie n her friend... so yeah... den eat at mac(s)... blew a bomb. man. bk so much cheaper. 390 for a whole meal... look at all the monies!.. bleh...

all this time the whole family save colin was at m'sia, hving apparently the time of their life. well mb not. place buzzing with cedarians. cant be too pleasant? haha... rephrase: place buzzing with Girls. still not too pleasant. den today went down to sba to play badminton (i mean wat else DOES one to at SBA?)... there were ex-nationals. my honour to be there. i'd improve now. i hv room to improve. contrary to popular believe that i've reached my peak and too lousy by nature.

• note to self: improve footwork.

Anw after that went amk study with wZine... stress when u cant do questions i noe... yeah.. all s paper. better start muggin s paper

Things to Mug

• GP
• Maths S
• Everything else... damn...

yaddaya-yaddaya - then church - den go out awhile - den im here.

Hi.

=D

oOops!

Oh wells... I missed last weekend.. but i think it was soo hard weekend. i don't noe why.

Anyway.. i doubt anyone actually comes here, so to whomever it may concern, sorry for missing, tho i think i aint apologising to anyone.. oh wells..

OMG i failed my GP essay! and all because i mentioned a few good points of totalitarianism... bleah... so much for balance. and i was onli given 67% of the time to do it. sad case. n since all my supposed evaluation of my points were located in the latter para's that didnt come out due to the lack of time, yar, my whole essay lacked evaluation. AND i put in effort in that lar!

without effort i get 16/50
with effort i get 19/50.

i might as well not put in effort lar!!! blardy hell... *i feel reli shortchanged*

n he told me not to write politics! hmph... if i listen to him most of the time, this is where i stop! come on lar, its the onli gp topic worth doing. mass media is HIS fave topic, not mine... jus hv to read up more.

• I vow to start mugging GP.

Well, there's kaleidoscope (n kaleidoscope online exclusively to me) n then theres research to be done on my pet topics. i'll show him! idiot. (its not in my character to insult teachers in this way mind u... but well, im not in a 'normal' state-of-mind.

OH n Mechanics is driving me up the wall. or well, off the wall. Impulses n Impacts. Oblique impacts...

~!~

"mv sin f = mu cos q ".

and the restitution rubbish. got headache. n the qn asks to prove to 0.185. n all i can get is 0.815! blardy hell. stuupid f maths mechanics.

u reli shld try catchin me at a better time

perhaps during the hols!

okie how to feel better after a blog: realise that well, there are onli TWO more school days left! (one and a half preferably), weeee... living on...

no. chugging on. dragging my feet as i walk slowly down to the corridor to the march hols.

random verse that comes to my head

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

JTS

3 letters that tend to represent the defining moment of a class. once a year.

Once a year u suffer (especially if ur the treasurer...) and once a year u enjoy (unless of course ur the treasurer still suffering the after effects of last year) =P

Of course im talking about "Junior Treat Senior" at VJC. A 'customary' practice. i jus wonder which lucky n smart n geni-ostic n eeediotic batch invented this system. The name is self-explanatory. For those who still dont understand, please approach my tag board (not advised, as i might jus laugh at u) or approach the nearest Victorian (JC of course) to find out more.

Aniwae... today was the S34 JTS!!! *applause!!!* (unless of course ur wan ling, 05S34 treasurer)

N i was reminded i owe "pple-whu-now-r-short-of-cash" loads of money. correction: 04S34 class fund owes them money. yup. not me. but i reli going to start collecting money!!!! i will!!! next week. $5.

yeah. if u cant tell, i'm in a "whatever" mood now...

ok so hows my week... yup. whatever week... badminton sux as usual.. cant seem to play properly at vj... eeek... but at least i like the team already... good enough for me!

• I AM going to improve my badminton. YUP.

No reason to improve my badminton, so erm.. why m i doing this? for marine parade? not reli likely.. its a fun game to play. anw no motivation. except colin. guess he's the last remaining bit of motivation left in my badminton-life. U GO, ST GABS CAP!!!

colins frens r quite cool. nice guys. practically changed my impression of st gabs guys. so now i noe 3 nice st gabs guys. already 2 more than i expected they'd hv... sorry st gabs! u are a good sch. but well colin was saying theres a lot of riffraff left in that sch, for all its goodness. nthg can be done abt that. anw...

ooh exciting part of the week was thursday... though the rain, n the "price of pool" ruined it. shldve gone parkway. den can play cheaper. amk pool place nearly $8/hr lor..

i met marie n naf at amk.. naf's bdae.. so slack at amk library, (naf's fave place in the whole wide world save australia), till donno when lar... den wanted to cross to go amk pool place. den as we were abt to step out, suddenly got torrential rain. seriously. torrential. anw, so we went one biiiig round, bought n umbrella n reached the poolplace half wet. my right n her left. tiny miniscule dimunitive excuse for an umbrella. granted, it covered one person. half of me n half of her..

ok anw enough complaining abt tiny umbrellas n start complaining abt pool places tt are way too ex. it was like $6 for OFFPEAK lor.. n we went at peak... so in the end was like.. don play pool; my pocket will start crying.
DEN jus eat at kfc (don wan moss burger cos my pocket will cry too), chat for awhile, (quite a long time actually) den go home! good day.

ohh.. i relise its a bit hard to forget tt u like sum1... so i think we jus hv to get used to the fact, till, as i once read in a GP article, its uniqueness is lost. so i hv to go on keeping this 'secret' n jus view it in a nonchalant point of view.

IHATCOY. so what?

yeah tt kind of view. for those whu are clueless and curious, go read the Teenage Textbook by Adrian Tan. its nthg to get overly excited over anw..

den of course theres my 'hero', n for the benefit of pple out there whu speculate i.e. marcus, Nope, theres no story here. my hearts elsewhere... haha!

socks is my hero!

n so now i m literally proclaiming to the whole world. cos she's so disciplined. which, duh, im not at all. n she's as fast as me in 2.4km. =P

oh i miss crappers. jus plain crappers. guess tts y its so fun talking to jen yuh. hahaha. ultimate in crapping. i think i can crap too.. duh im crapping now. no. normally i crap in blogs.. today im jus droning. amnt i? lets try to liven it up. n i think i've been writing for arnd an hour or so by now..

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I like tt phrase i just used.

"i'll tell her the day b4 i let my mom choose my wife from india"

not exactly i think.. i'd probably nvr tell her. nor will i let my mom choose. i hope.

hahaha..

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eek polar coordinates. cant rmb de curve. but soo cool the pics u can draw wid it. hearts n such... cool.. one minus cosine half theta (1- cos (0.5q)). try it. its well some sort of heart. yeah.. translated to cartesian coordinates its a bit harder lar... lazy to express in terms of y,so leave tt up to u lar..

2+x/(x^2+y^2)=1/root(x^2+y^2)

Yup... fun anyway... but there are a whole loads of topics tt appeal more to me. more aesthetically impressive.

Statistics: Poisson Distribution. Y~Po (l) rubbishie... but very standard. repetitive. but hvnt seen F maths part yet. tts hard. okay im getting sleepy already. actually onli came online tonite to listen to 100 years. so gonna listen to it once more... yeah.. den can go sleep. adieu~!

>> (damn long today huh?)
>> (and the l actually came out!!!)

Trudging Along

Literally... Tiredd.. But just have one question:

• Where'd my freaking Saturday disappear to?

They give u weekend to rest n recuperate. (n sunday for tutorials lar) but where'd my saturday of rest gooo????? i reached saturday night realising that my day of rest - that sole day of rest in the week - had just vanished away. And i hadnt got much rest.

oh wells... so i slept right into sunday morning. literally the whole of sunday morning. woke up at the stroke of noon. after every1 had gone, and returned, from church. so i had to go for evening mass. no complains there.

but eeek so much work to do, n im getting a little stressed out. all right, a lot stressed out. so now. plan for tonight, after i log off. Analysis - Numerical Methods. MEchanics - 2.2 + 3.1. STATISTICS - 4.1 + 4.2 + 4.3... sad huh? maths maths and more maths. depressing. oh then there's the mission to create the gpsoc website. haiii...

i doubt im going for badminton tmr. jus train a bit first though.. see lar.. ok better go for the mathathon now...

adieu~

Welcome to Anfield.

I'd be using much fouler language if this weren't to be put up online, cos well, this jus hasnt really been my day...

But i must learn to accept defeat in wat i do (just as my fave team Liverpool seems to have done). So in the end, lets jus accept it and get on with our lives. Nvm, getting outclassed by Birmingham City (today) still is not as bad as getting destroyed by relegation-contenders Southampton (few weeks ago). I'm only shocked at how i've managed to keep faithful to the team. bleh...

Okaay, first things' first, cross-country. Well i got 260th position, which is not too bad considering i wasn't REALLY in tip-top condition, but well, no excuses la.. anw wala thought me a new way of viewing this position. I didnt LOSE to 259 pple, (technically i didnt. onli lost to around 256 cos pple cut me unfairly) i BEAT say 540 pple? 540>259, so technically its good!!! yayness! haha..

*distant applause*

yeah whatever.
Ooh yarr.. for those who didnt noe, Friday was 'Ash Wednesday'. Yup, no typo involved, Ash Wednesday happened to fall on Chinese New Year, so it was 'postponed' to Friday. And so begins the 40 days of Lent.

And boy was it busy. as if running around for cross country was bad, i ended up journeying cross country (this time literally) for my mom... i.e. from NE(home) - SE(School) - SE(Parkway, this is at my own will of course) - NE(home again) - S(lavender) - NE(home) - NE(AMK) - NE(home).

S(Lavender) was to get my brother's I/C done, and NE(AMK) was to buy food... (for the children at least)...

and SE(School) was for some absurd reason which i still, after 11 years, cannot fathom.

Oh wells, so naturally i was shagged (tired, for those who willfully choose to misintepret). completely. 'but there was a nice show to watch...' bleh so i end up sleeping at 1. like today i guess...

woah i only just peeked at the time. shocker.. ought to get to bed a.s.a.p. Hopefully to sweet dreams... byeeeee

Chinese NeW YeaR,

Indian Style

Ohh.. pple ask me "do u celebrate chinese new year?" (in all their innocence i shall presume). And i can't help it but heap on more confusion to these confused minds ('confused' is another word for 'innocent' here) by choosing to view the word "celebrate" in a way different to theirs - i.e. to celebrate is to rejoice. and so "yes, i do 'celebrate' ON chinese new year." Simple as that.

But well that's not reali that's true.. especially in the sense that, well, chinese new year fell on days which negated one week to jus one day. one day which pple viewed as "a day to come to sch jus because THEY said we must". hmmm.. anyway, in any sense, since friday we have our 'dear beloved cross country', (for those who can't see scarcasm when its laid flat out in front of you, i'll be nice enough to offer a translation: 'xxxxxxxx x-country') we have an ominous 'treat' (again for those i mentioned earlier:!@#$%) in store for us that we can look forward to (i'm tired of offering translations, so jus believe wat u want to believe).

new vows:

1. i'm going to become fit, up to n higher than sec 3 standard.
2. i'm going to actually do all my tutorials on the weekend in preparation for the week (chinese new year is not considered a weekend)
3. i'm going to have enough energy after cross country to run another 4.8 km, by hook or by crook... (nah, who m i kidding?.. definitely by crook)
4. i'm going to try n solve a little problem regarding... erm.. distractions.
5. i'm going to blog every weekend. yar i am, okay... stop sniggering!!
6. i'm going to keep these vows jus as my dear friend shaWiza shaWi keeps hers.

yay wish me luck in tmr's cross country. nah i wont need it. cos i wont use it. byeeez~!

BrEak-AwAy

i jus realised i hv actually stuck to a new favourite song for a pretty long time... perhaps its pretty much applicable to me in the sense that its kinda my ambition...

Anyway i fell in love with this song even before i knew Avril co-wrote it.. and well, probably its here for those of my frens who r studying or will study overseas..

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray (I would pray)

I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floorsS

winging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway...

MaKeS U WonDer

Finally.. a week of serious confusion is over.. and a new one has begun. i always look at sunday as the beginning of the week. cos im most refreshed then.. in all senses. physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally.

But if u ask me, all four aspects above mentioned are pretty linked. so yeah.. after church i went to pray awhile.. somewhat meditating abit.. on my life n wat was preached today. n i realise jus wats wrong with the world today.

Everybody is doing what THEY want, worrying what THEY want, and wish for. Even Sunday-going christians.. we keep asking for things.. but its jus what WE want... bleah.. Dawn of reckoning... If we were not to do n concentrate onli on what WE want, im sure the world wld definitely be a better place..

But its tough lar.. can start trying..

Ok so ends the first weekend of term. n the badminton girls team look set to get the nat'l championship, while our boys are getting set to erm... well get top 16 la.. out of 16, nonetheless.. but anw.. we can watch our girls win.. sweet enough.

Arf.. so much holiday hw left. statistics.. groan... i'd better start right now.. otherwise.. die lar... n worse, if i not finished by tmr, theres little chance one more day wld make a diff.. monday night! badminton! argh.. problem. but i'll jus take a step back n relax lar.. jus do what is needed of me. =p. yepz.. hmm tt means now. okok.. off to do hw! adieu.. till next week!

B.Ed

No, not bachelor of education. jus bed. i realised i ottago bed earlier. :D okay..

its a wonder solution! i get to skip the "depressing" part of my day - the night. AND i m less stressed in the morn. hopefully lar. BED!!! i love my bed!

rmb kiddies, its always better to sleep in your BED at home than on your desk!

oh wells.. anyways soon im gg out wid my grampa.. tts cool, onli prob is - going to buy Assessment books! argh.. n hv his Work (i.e research on The Economics of Sports) to do.. haha.. sounds cheem eh? its not. but fascinating none-the-less...

hmmm i think there's no epl this week. bleah. oh wells, reduces the dilemma on singapore indon tie.. ought to watch it la, but i think i'll end up cursing at the tv a lot. cursing at players who cant hear me? bah.. sounds mad.. curse at ref perhaps too.. see la...

tired liao.. mb i blog again later..

Grabbin' Shadows

Nope, these arent the shadows of pple i want to be. its the shadows of pple i knew once. its like.. everyone changes, granted, thats a fact of life. A lack of change would dull life to such an extent, lets jus say its unimaginable. but still, what if everyone adapts n then u are jus left behind. what if.. in the rapids of change, we cling on to the rocks rather than ride the waves..

Its quite sad, more so for myself, as i watch other pple capable of so quickly adapting themselves. meaning simply, if evolution were to pass us by at a little faster rate, i'd be extinct in no time..

N again the troubles tt plagued me, n made my life quite fun, in andss, theyre coming back. mainly heart against mind kinda problem. n well, u noe, i always tend to favour the mind. ought to go with heart some day. hmmm... anw, it doesnt make sense for any1 to like me more than jus as a fren. nvr made much sense. jus not fated i guess.. oh wells.. lets jus wait for this thing to jus wear off. done it before, yar it didnt work, but now theres more at stake la, i guess, eg. a friendship.. heex.. oh well...

too much said already. but moving on.

argh got badminton tmr, n got loads of work to do. n i cant work at home... sheesh. nvr works. im going to sum library sum day n study...

ok la. tired, n depressed, s i hv been for the past few nights. bah...

goodnight world~

today is a sad day for all humanity.

or at least, for all school pupils in our tiny isle..

its the last day of holidays, n school is starting very soon. man.. this is depresssing... ya, the year 2004 is over, n welcome 2005. hopefully its a better yr than last year, but i think we end up saying that at the end of every year.

and hence my hypothesis: every year is both good n bad, but its jus by human nature we tend to see the bad and r blind to the good, n hence even if we get a year tt is 99% good n 1% bad we might still hv the chick to ask for a better year. i mean honestly, lets jus spare a thought for those of the 6 billion of us who are hving a 99% bad and 1% good year. well, for them, perhaps we could look at it from the bright side... it is reli reli reli very possible n in fact likely that the new year would be much better than the old one. quite a high chance...

so for my new year, i jus hope it will be a normal year, not too bad, n not too good either, for if its too good, its likely not to get any better. bah.. weird perspective. totally...

let me analyse the prospects for the upcoming year.

1. a new importance for PE n pull ups. damn...
2. easily identified problem - A levels
3. badminton, but tt seems to apparently be taking a back seat, not due to any exertions on my part..
4. GLOPOS. honestly this wasnt smthg i had reli thought would be a core CCA for me, more as a subsidiary one. but sumhow ive got a recently rekindled interest in it. fascinating to design a web-zine. designing either a website or a magazine is fun. so imagine wat fun this is...
5. hmm i reli would like a scholarship n wouldnt like to be disappointed. so unfortunately i hv to work reli hard on it. n i don like that. not the hard worker sort.

so it seems i hv my work for 2005 cut out. or i could menanti nasi disajikan di mulut... sumwhat like how i hv been kinda carrying out my life in some respects. but i'll work to what i need to work. do your best n God will do the rest..

so look out world, here comes my best... n it aint gonna be pretty.

ok in the light of the new year,

HaPpY nEw YeAr all..

n in the light of customary practice for a new year,

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
And days of auld lang syne, my dear,
And days of auld lang syne.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
We twa hae run aboot the braes
And pu'd the gowans fine.
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne,
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld ang syne.
We twa hae sported i' the burn,
From morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne.
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
And ther's a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie's a hand o' thine;
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

Wish me LUCK!!!

Arf i missed OUT on one day!
not jus anyday. MY BIRTHDAY!... waaaa...

ah.. nvm.
better like this..

so on 12 dec im awake till midnite. and i get my first wishes! yay! colin of course first to wish me, on the upstairs bed, wad dya expect. den grace (ur second!) sms. and den i got calls on mi hp. from marie, n interuptin her, gobi.. haha..

well den i sleep.

so my bdae is as-per-(annum)-normal.
not mundane in any sense. jus tt normal saves a lot of explanations.

anw we had lunch in j8. pammy carol auntina and colin, deebs, n mum.. and followed soon afterward, (soon bcos of shopping and digesting) by swensens ice crem! yay!!

i was reli tired la.. for some reason.. anw.. so we go back and watch HP3, deebs's bdae prezzie. yay!

den was de cake cutting ceremony. the quiet family one. which is good. haha

anw.. now i got a chalet to go for... not overnite most prob.. haha.. okie.. ciao!

Weeee!!!

Finally im back home.. i was at de chalet for past few days. wed, thurs, fri, and of course saturday mornin'... and was so cool..

I mean like jus hang out with the "unit". familie..! cuz's.

So how was it? on wednesday was jus a normal chalet day. i.e. play with cousins jon, jackie, stevie. altho i say its a normal chalet day, it doesnt take away any lafter or fun-ness of it la.. jus normal as in 'wat should be expected of a typical chalet day lah'.

well, tt was said to point out that in saying that, thursday would be considered an atypical chalet day. cos my frenz came over. namely naf, keegan, chunmin, marie, n jz... so ya.. but was fun la.. of course it will be. wat we did? monopoly! n cycling while the sun still shone too. and ironically though throughout the three days it kept threatening to rain, it nvr did. n the first drops were finally felt on the last night, while we were all safely snuggled in our cosy beds.

oh anw im jumping the gun.

oh ya on that "frens-day" gobi n norman were supposed to come, but norman didnt hv enuf time to make it there la, or he was slightly under the weather, or both la.. n gobi, well, dunno la.. mb he got lost.. in a time portal or smthg.. haha.. but no problem.. there wouldnt hv been much to do anw..

time portal i say cos he called me at 12 NOON on 10 dec! wishing me happy bdae.. bit weird.. time portal? bleh.. haha.. "P.S. gobi can u explain this to me if u read this? thx.. hahaha.."

anw on friday i had badminton training in the afternoon. but not much trouble in a five minute walk to school.. och.. nvr felt that before man.. jus get up, 5-10 min walk along the beach to sch.. so convenient.. man i'll miss that..

so i had to leave early, cos there was party after that, n had to get a quick ride back hopefully, n santosh was there, so i borrowed a bike la.. SC good la, rent out bikes.. och wait.. nvm, no talk abt that taboos subject here.

n i used that bike to go cycling wif da guys.. jon n jackie n steven i mean. n went further than before.. towards 0-pt, as i soon learnt afterwards, the point that says zero kilometers. Zero-point!. ingenius.. haha..

anw the party was after that, n after it ended there was excess food, shared among the pple, n so we hv food for todays lunch, but again im jumping ahead here.

so we wanted to cheong the nite. without a shutting of the eyes, but some of my 'cheonging-partners' lost the will after some time, n well, eventually conked out. so ya.. too bad.. no cheonging partners, n so i oso say goodnite la. plus the rain provided such a wonderful sophophoric feel.. how not to sleep?

bah.. anw.. nthg much missed by sleeping. in the morning had to rush to sch to return the bike, and soon after that, check out. btw this is today morning. n then wat we do when we go home? all the necessities tt were unable to be done in the chalet. leave tt to ur imagination.. bleh

and a mass clean up of the house. tt was too pretty necessary. ya.

and so its a normal saturday, n as a family, or rather few members in the family we end up watching home videos, some of us more likely. others tended to play cards or smthg, perhaps as a hangover from chalet fever.. bleh.. hahahaha...

n then so on and so forth, n here i am. after a chalet break.

next chalet: badminton chalet - 14-16 dec, probably go one day. mb stay one night. not sure at all.. haha.. over and out~!

PS my bdae is 13-dec!

yay!!!

Singapore draw with hosts Vietnam in 2004 tiger cup. great news for all those who still faithfully support singapore national futball team, a gradually dwindling number...

and i realise i was waving the indonesian flag while shouting on for singapore. kinda similar rite? the two flags i mean..

but considering we played like shit, good la

oh.. i better go sleep early today.. got chalet tmr!! yay!!!

adieu!

WaLkAbOuT

today is 6 dec though my watch tells me its the 5th. im still figuring out how to operate my watch.. bah.. shouldnt hv thrown the manual away lorz..
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i wake up early in the morning, the sun has already risen to shine the whole sky. well, whats new, i hv been waking up past 10 for the past few days.
yay! appam! eat....

how must go out at 1.00. meet jen n wz.. we going to watch a movieeee
without a paddle.

but bishan don hv the show...

so we hv to go down south. not that i mind or anything. so ps it is.. plaza singapura, dhoby ghout, the show's at 2.50 btw.. and so we hv to eat at Mac. cos WZ like mac. n everywhere else is crowded to packing point. n i get my NZ souvenir too! keychain! wif a little kiwi on it..

DUH its from NZ =P.. u wont find a 'roo on it.

so the show is like at 2.50 pm. but i think it started at 3.15 in the end. but in the premovie advertisments theres a mention abt fall, n miss WZ asks me wat's "fall", n da guy next to me, goodness knows whu it is, answers. bleh... "autumn". jen ought to hv answered first rite? she noes it personally. bah.. haha.. funny moment.

so the movie goes on.. n on.. its quite nice. interesting and funny at the same time.

and on we go..

now finally the kopitiam is empty. great, cos im hungry. fried kway teow is cheap, makan time! (wah as i write this i getting hungry!)

and walk on...
and on...

now time to go home. so we take mrt. back home. yay!

end of outing!

and so i come home doing the usual boring thing of going online. i don wan monopoly.

oh btw chalet coming soon. wednesday. two days time!!! yay!!!

all is organised. hopefully... yesh.. oh tmr i hv to wake up early.. got to do GP in the morning with popss.. haha... so better sleep early!! adieu!

Sumhow i think i m screwing up my social life more and more and more jus as time passes. why? dont ask me.. hmm maybe i jus cant let go of wat i had had last year. and perhaps i jus dont adapt to change sufficiently quickly.. bah...

i think pple now hv begun to hate me, or at least dislike me. and i m feeling it openly now. worse still my practicality comes in. sumhow it doesnt perhaps bother me as much as it ought to.. which is sad..

am i overpractical? its not as though i dont like it.. which is a bit part of the problem. practicality gets me through things. why should i turn against this attribute? haiz.. i dont want to lose what i had. but whether i can hold on, or even if i should, now begins to be a doubt.

theres a great turning point in my course of life. a can sense it. the change is imminent. inevitable too. they say embrace change. but what if its change for the worse. i believe in myself enough to trust its not a change for the better. hmm.. i oughtnt.

realise it now. believe in myself? not a good idea.

so embrace it? i guess... avoid the past? or accept it?

argh.. so confused. n i think well im better off forgetting it. ya.. neither avoid nor accept. bleh..

now watching lotr... nthg to do now ba.. pple whu usually r online n i talk to r not here. some in philippines. no names mentioned. hahaha.. bleh whatever..

i think i'd better get a decent rest. then i'll forget these problems. things forgotten do not hurt. haha.. ya.. guess tts my policy..

ok rest time.. over and out.